Go through life like a karate kid

New home

2009-09-15T18:05:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone .

New link will be up real soon .

I promise .

; The End

2009-09-10T15:23:00.004+08:00

By Day 26

Baby Close The Door
I'll Show You What's In Store For You
Everything And More So Please Just Close The Door
Cause I Want You To Myself
Don't Need Nobody Else
Cause Being Alone With You Feels So Good So Good

It has been quite a marvelous , bumpy yet fruitful ride with Blogger . But as they always say ; all good things must come to an end . This will be my last entry and this can get real lengthy . I now let my mind do the inner speaking and my fingers to type the day away .

Day by day . I figure-d that I must have fallen in love over and over again . I express my heart warm love towards the littlest thing that came in contact with one of my five senses .

My ears fell in love with the voices of singers , the beautiful harmonization of a group , and the splendid acoustic guitars strumming at note that is to me ; perfect . And many more
My skin fell in love with the texture of every material that Allah has bless upon us . I fell in love deeply when I touched the skin of my parents . It felt like heaven and my heart falls deeper . And many more
My nose fell in love with the exquisite smell of food . Just remembering on how thankful I am to actually be here . Not many of us are fortunate enough to taste it let alone smell it . And many more
My eyes fell in love with the sight of babies , kids , people whom are in love , history books , my friends , my family . I fell in love all over again .
My tongue fell in love with the food that Mama always cooks , and every day , a different kind of love sends its heart full of devotion .

You see , I have been hurt one two many times . When I am down , I reflect upon myself and I see a person whom I loathe . I sense hatred and angst in me and that is to me , not healthy at all . I lean on myself , learning every veins and bones in me , I accepted my flaws and I grew stronger . I made decisions , huge ones . Giving up on something or someone whom I really pour my feelings too , BUT I realize that . Letting go does not mean that I am weak , it just means that I am strong enough to accept the changes in my life and adapt to it .

Touching upon a person . I cannot ever explain how much he means to me . I have fallen for a guy who change my ways of seeing things . He was truly amazing and I find it quite hilarious that I smash into his path back and forth . The moment I smash into him , I will end up letting go with hurt on the back of my shoulders . However , this time around , I see my path with him is nothing close to being hurt . I learnt a lot with his presence around me . Without him , I would not have thought that I have patience , understanding and trust . Yes , I still do adore him in every single way , but things have been different lately . As much as HOW I do not want that to happen , at the end of the day , IT HAS HAPPEN . I truly believe in this phrase ; we must be willing to let go of the life that we have planned , so as to have the life waiting for us . However , deep down I know , I still do want to have him around . I need his presence . I realize that a lot of my stuffs are in blue . My bed sheet is in blue , my bolster is in blue , my pillow is in blue , my cookie monster which I sleep with , is in blue except for my smelly pillow which is in green that is .

On a lighter note . The month of sheer joy has befall me . Holidays are here for me to saviour every moment before my new term starts . The month of blessings are also nearing and I am deeply gratified that I can see my family members .

On a second note , I miss the boys of Freekzy and Kak Zeella already . Competition in Genting is one of the best opportunity and a stepping stone for any dancers . I hope all of the crew that came and represent Singapore , did us proud and really REPRESENTED Singapore in every way possible . I do believe that every individual crew is unique and has their own strengths . I have mad respect to every crew in Singapore . I beleive that everyone of us are in this for the same love and for the same passion . Let us all come together and bring our dance scene rise above .

I guess this is it . My last entry . I am simply thankfull to everyone who has been reading , or just browsing through . What ever way it is , Thank You . Leaving my song , plurk , tagboard up . I am going to miss blogging . Honestly . For your viewing pleasure , please feel free to check up upon my other entries in the previous months .

& with that .
I officially declare that
my blog is
closed

Have a successful journey , months , year Singapore .

love ,
zimah

; Morning comes

2009-09-07T03:50:00.001+08:00

It is 3.52 in the morning . Body system has not yet shut down as you can tell . I feel seriously warmed up with the presence of my love ones , to an extent , that I can actually be a bit like a primary school girl which has just been presented with new sets of colour markers .

Sleep well Singapore
love ,
zimah

; By Colbie Caillat

2009-09-06T17:11:00.003+08:00

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’m fallin’ for you

Have a nice Sunday Singapore .

love ,
zimah

; Girl Friend

2009-09-05T23:01:00.001+08:00

Dearest Girlfriend ,

A very Happy Birthday to you . 4 years of friendship and it keeps going on and strong . You know I love you really much and seriously cannot wait till December to come . We and the other girlfriends are going to have the time of our life . BUT until that comes , here is my prayers send to you . May you been bless to have never ending happiness in your life and may success be on every of your doors . Insyaallah .

; My Soul Provider

2009-09-05T21:17:00.005+08:00

By Jamie Foxx and Drake

And i rememba amy she used to AIM me
She stayed up late and used to blame me
She said im too wild she wana attain me
I told her even photo shop couldnt change me
But u-u-u-u got me open girl why lie
We aint even tryna settle so why try
End the night with a kiss and a bye bye
No strings attatched your love is so Wi-Fi

Placing all the symptoms I went through the night before aside , I honestly have to say despite a few hiccups and minor distractions here and there , I spent a splendid Saturday with My Pillars plus MiraGeeAfiq once again . The morning was such a rush as I did not wake up at the appointed time therefore pushing the arrival time later than before . Met up with our small one at Clementi and off we train-ed to City Hall to get that small one her long black Dickies . Cab-ed to Suntec to catch the Semi Finals . The spot that we got to stand was such a bore , I could not see it clearly .

I must say , every crew did their thing and seriously level it all up . As usual , my eyes were set upon the few crews that have left marks in my memory and happiness befalls me when the crews that I was looking forward to , have advance their way to the Finals , and with that , I congratulate them and may success cross their path every single day .

Dragged our already fatigue legs to Marina whereby we made our way to Kiddy Palace to buy Monopoly Cards *smiles* . Such an addictive game indeed . We settle down at the rooftop whereby we commence with the game and had fun with one of our love ones "selenger-ness" . We than randomly danced here and there and just having a good time before making our way to Singapore Flyer to break our fast at Popeye's . I on the other hand , was not feeling hungry but I could sense the thirst in me , so I had my all time favourite FnN drink in Grape *claps hands*

I made my way home due to the fact I could not stay long . I ended up sleeping in the bus . Looking all sluggish when my stop arrive . I guess this is it . Thank you to those who lifted my spirits back up *sings Smash into you by Beyonce* I love every single one of you . Sisters before dicks (as told as Seri)

Currently Video Calling with dearest . Freaking happy ok . sumpah =D

Have a nice week ahead Singapore .
Rest well .

new songs up .

Not anymore by Letoya
Digital Girl by Jamie Foxx feat Drake
Sunshowers by MIA

love ,
zimah

p.s
one more go ?
and aku really
suka engkau .
sumpahhhhh

; no wait . Seriously ?

2009-09-04T22:54:00.002+08:00

By Letoya

Well I've been the super girlfriend
Let you think that nothing bothered me
Like when you go out with your friends
And people bring me back the stories
Them stories bout them other girls
Like this one, and that one, and those three
So when I ask a simple question (where was you last nite?)
You wanna yell and scream and try to flip it on me

Mixing emotions while digesting information is a sign whereby your heart and mentality are on the wrong direction . The things that I have been thinking are closely kept in my brain , and thus far I guess I will have to learn to let it go one by one . I got to make a decision and I am afraid that it might appear rash but somehow , I realize I cannot go on living with this unknown feelings etched in me . Sentences after sentences were told and my ears was forcing itself to engulf every single of it ; to make everything crystal clear . Yes , at one point of the time , I was left pondering all by myself . To compare and contrast DETAILS against what I see right now .

You see , the situations that I have been through , I took it as an experience and something to learn about . Therefore , bringing it forward to my present life , I have been closely relating every single lessons to reality . The rest , I shall leave it between me . I guess even IF the decisions were made , I truly believe the other party will not feel the pinch , for I truly conclude that I was never a figure in that party's life to begin with .

I guess this is it
2nd time in a year .
Such luck .
None the less
keep the positivity going strong

I hope you have a fruitful Saturday
I will blog about Step It Up ; Bboy Jam .
Mad respect to those who represented .

love ,
zimah

p.s
you see that flag ?
tell me what colour is it ?
Oh wait .
It's white

; Out of boredom

2009-09-03T18:59:00.002+08:00

& mind me ,
I was seriously bored .

I miss everyone .

love ,
zimah

; The only one I think about

2009-09-03T17:17:00.003+08:00

By Taylor Swift

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

My heart nearly stop for a second and my eyes grew wide when I found out that I and my fellow classmates are to report to school by 7.45 in the morning . For a person living in the West , it is never a good news for our ears to feed on . Closely timed our self and we decided to drag our heavy legs to school by 6 in the morning . Therefore , I conclude that my morning was a dull one and I was literally sleeping under the warm showers to an extent that Mama had to scream out loud to get my attention .

The Army Open House was an eye opener . I am deeply gratified that Singapore takes all measures into consideration and with that , I truly believe that we are under safe hands . I bare witness the changes our Army undergo . From the first generation to the current third generation . We are really well equip with the latest technology and what-ever-not . I was super elated that I manage to board a Chinook . It was seriously humongous and it was really stuffy .

The previous day , I went out with my Pillar Sasha to roam the streets of Orchard . I recall the fact that she was craving for MacDonalds , so therefore , I treated her with a meal of Mac Nuggets and I satisfy my Mac Spicy Cravings for our breaking of fast . After which , we headed home while I made a pit stop over my Grand-parents crib . My heart twist with sadness when I saw those legs of my Grand-mom . I sat next to her and gave her a massage , and I promise myself that I will make my way over her place and take care both her and Atok from next week onwards . Insyaallah .

I am seriously lethargic and not feeling that well . My plans were change , but I got to be thankful that the person was understanding enought . Thank you for that .

I will end here .

Have a nice FRIDAY Singapore

love ,
zimah

p.s
I am bless .
Be positive .

; Don't let your guards down

2009-09-01T23:01:00.002+08:00

By Jazmine Sullivan

Most circumstances I know my fate
But in this love thang I don't get the game
Why does it feel like those who give in,
They only wind up losing a friend?
Just cause I love u and u love me,
It doesn't mean that we'll ever be,
Fly cross the ocean, sing for the Queen,
But the most frightening thing is you & me!

I'm not scared of lions and tigers and bears
But I'm scared of
I'm not scared to perform at a sold out affair
But I'm scared of

I place my heavy head to bed in the afternoon while waiting for Bring It On : Fight to the Finish to load . My whole system is seriously fatigue to an extent that I was all laze up at home reluctant enough to do barely anything . I place all of my studious manner aside because my brain was not on the good side . Even if my young one Raiyan was present , I was completely lethargic to run around and get all active so I gave him full access to my laptop and he sat there glued to some game . After which he went to watch Pendekar Bujang Lapok with Mama and Abah and he slept peacefully after that .

A couple of hours back I was at IMM with my family . I had a scrumptious meal and I am bloated till now . I cannot place a finger to why I feel drain . No seriously , I wonder why am I this tired all of a sudden . I guess the weather will be my perfect answer for now .

I better get going . I need to finish up my chart and do my Introductory Chemistry Homework . YES , I do have homework . Exams are next week .

Have a nice rest Singapore .

love ,
zimah

; Built to last

2009-08-31T20:09:00.002+08:00

By Amerie

Why are you the one
I can’t lose

What’s the reason that I’m here again it’s crazy
I keep waiting but I’m foolish cause you’ll never change
Wasted all my time and here I am still crying over you
Over you

Loving you was so hard
(But I keep Trying Baby)
I just end of with scars
(Cause I keep fighting Baby)
Loving you is like a battle that I can’t afford to lose
I can’t lose

Mama came home with a lot of presents in her hands . I am sure she is one pleasant lady to begin with . Being with my Mama for 18 years , I know that she is a neat freak ; therefore it is of to no surprise that she is arranging her roses perfectly in a long sleek vase filled with colourful rocks . To cut to the chase , I would love to wish A Happy Teachers Day to all the teachers be it international or local , be it current or retired . You have made an impact to every individual .

Earlier on , I received back my Introductory Chemistry Theory Test Paper 2 . Fear stuck-ed in my throat and I prayed for the very best . I could feel my heart beat racing and a huge relief overwhelm me when I found out that I pass . Alhamdullilah to that . However , the results was actually not a pleasing one , so therefore , I will keep on revising until my brain cells do deplete . *giggles*

School's out and I accompanied Dearest Nabilah to get her hair done . Waited for 3 hours and it was worth it . We stole some nap time as we were really fatigue . Her final outcome was splendid . Alhamdullilah . She looks seriously stunning with her new look . I am really happy for her . I can tell that she was really ecstatic with it . She could not stop touching and feeling her new awesome hair . Like I say , I am really happy .

Currently , I am watching The Incredibles . I swear I can never get sick of that movie . I love it . Honest . After which , I will head down to get my thinking caps on . The next day , Abah opted to play Bowling in the morning , and we will break our fast over at Red Ginger . I cannot wait .

Before I end this post . I would love to send my warmest hugs to the people I miss the most
*Bee
*Dinah
*Sasha
*Syiqy
*Hetty
*someone ;D

Have a nice day Singapore .
Take the time off dearest Teachers
You deserve it .

love ,
zimah

p.s
Thursday ?
Insyaallah

; Just like a little school girl

2009-08-30T14:48:00.002+08:00

By Day 26

Life is such a crazy thing
It's never really what it seems
Cause first we were chillin
Now I'm catchin feelins
Can you tell me what this means
I'm going through my voicemail
And I'm saving every message you sent
I'm tryna reading between the lines
To see if there was somethin' I missed

All of a sudden, my vision became so clear.
Everything I needed was right here,
Before me (before me)
So pressed to let you know
Just how you make me feel
Never had a feeling thats so real

The whole part of me could not sit still when the group category began to take place . I was up front with my dearest Pillars and I was definitely so hype up and was enjoying myself there . The group category was splendid , and my jaw drop over a lot of groups . The most amazing part was , I get to see one of my inspiration ; Joyce . Once Suntec was wrap up , we made our way to Somerset ; Orchard Central to catch Shazran , and yes we were amazingly late but bro , we were there right and we still came right *giggles* . Met up with the usual . MiraLiyFreakzy .

We broke our fast at Kentucky Fried Chicken over at Cineleisure . We were shocked to bare witness that the place was seriously packed . Therefore , everyone decided to pack it all up , until we found out that SEATS were available . Being an environmental friendly lady , I was sad that plastic bags are gone to waste *cey* . Fauzie attached the handphone to the speaker and raise it up in the air and when we heard the "Azan" everyone faces beam up . Fauzie said the prayers and we all dig in our food . Honestly , I was really happy because it was quite some time since I last spend time with all of them . Therefore , I gave some jokes to my Pillars . I guess they realize that I was seriously ecstatic . Mainly because I was meeting someone I adore later on .

Thank you Abang Jamyl for treating all of us to Left4Dead . I was paired up with Dearest Sasha and Dearest Bee . 3 girls against countless of zombies . Take that *huge smile* . We completed 2 missions and we came out as survivors . I so hate TANK , however I learnt that if we work together , we can actually eliminate that idiotic TANK . Dearest Bee loves disturbing the Witch and when the Witch scratch her , she was happily shouting next to me . Silly of her . However , my time was cut short because I was all jumpy jumpy meeting someone . Therefore , Dearest Dinah took over my place ; clueless HAHA .

To end this . Alhamdullilah . Manchester United won . Say what ever you want too . 3 points still goes to us . No changing the fact . And I am sending my prayers to the family of DJ AM who died yesterday . May his soul rest in peace

Have a nice Sunday Singapore .

love ,
zimah

p.s
If I was not a stinky stinky poo
I would have hugged you and never let you go
It's weird how you know so much about me ;
by just looking at my hand .
I am so down on the 4th
supporting youuuu and the rest

; That barrier

2009-08-28T22:23:00.003+08:00

By Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it, that dream i'm dreamin but, there's a voice inside my head sayin, you'll never reach it. every step im takin every move i make feels lost with no direction, my faith is shakin, but i, i gotta keep tryin i gotta keep my head held high

there's always gonna be another mountain im always gonna wanna make it move always gonna be an uphill battle and sometimes im gonna have to lose it aint about how fast i get there aint about whats waitin on the other side its the climb

My heart is racing at a speed on which it's SI unit is unknown to men . I can feel every bones in me cringing , and my vibes are shivering . Deep down , I know that I am anticipating but I do know that I am well anxious too . I can just sit and dwell on what the day will be like for me . Be it good or bad , I shall take it as something to learn from and grow from it . However , insyaallah , I can manage . The day will be perfectly blended with the perfect companions . That I cannot wait .

My Thursday was a splendid one . My Pillars have been a source of strength , laughter and love to me . The plans were ruin as different minds have set on different ventures . However , our perfectly suited mind began doing its wonders and we picked Long John Silver as our ideal place to break our fast . Before hand , we had like 3 hours to let loose and so , we went to the Library to have some "quiet" time . *giggles* By 6.30 we made way to the location set and we feared that the seats have been occupied but soon as we arrive , the assumptions we made was purely on the opposite lane . I guess to summarize this all up , you can always click here My pillar Sasha
to check up some pictures and a video of yesterdays memories . Plus , after eating to our hearts content we dragged our already heavy legs to Lot One Garden whereby it was dissected into 2 sections . Water Play , and Dry Playground . So the security guard claims that the Dry Playground was meant for kids . Such irony , we are still kids in one way or another right . So with despair , we made our way to the Water Play section . Neither of us had the intention to get soaking wet BUT at the end of the day , we all made our very own obstacle courses and with that , everyone was drenched . For the love of Fresh Flava .

The night ended with a sweet taste . Even if I was doing a great job multi tasking , I on the other hand could not get my hands off the keyboards . Well , that is what a girl like me will do if she misses the one she adores . Honestly , his voice rings inside my head and his image stay clearly too *stop being mushy* , after much consideration . I admit defeat and as I was writing my last few sentences for my notes , I finally slept on the cold hard floor at 3 plus in the morning . Resulting me to be a real cranky kid the next morning .

As for today . My Pillars and I kind of walk almost everywhere . Stories were shared , and I just got to know that in between Serangoon and this another station (Apologies , I could not remember what was the station) , there was another station that was built BUT it was closed down due to the fact that it was haunted . We girls were being crazy and we decided to actually head down there (if we know the route of course) and do some exploring . Plus with each and every individual deprive of sleep , we actually had our own nap time in the studio and I am sure everyone was rejuvenated . We make a move by 630 to my place and we played this fish game along the way . I would want to collect 50 tokens *giggles* .

Mama cooked Fish and Chips for everyone . I guess they were full . Including me . We were as bloated as a puffer fish . Thank you Mama for cooking for us . Plus I will be heading out at 10 am to meet Dearest Hasween to head down to Kak Z's crib .

I realize that I write to much in this entry
I guess , this will last for a long time
due to the fact that I am busy with school work and what-ever-nots

I love my pillars
my family
and ARziLAH

Therefore ,
wishing you a happy week-end Singapore .

love ,
zimah

p.s
I
miss
you .
tau
tak .
simpson and south park boy

; Is this the moment

2009-08-25T19:37:00.004+08:00

By Mary J Blige

them other girls that you done been with
none of them got nothing on me
aint got my style
they aint got nothing on me
nothing on me
way i walk
way i talk
my swagga look around
every dude wanna have her
i aint saying that i am the best
but im the best
hey baby you need that.

I was bless with a great companion today ; music . My days have been rough and difficult and when the walls that I have successfully build up is starting to fall apart , I guess Music was there to save me from my hard fall . I realize that I am never too picky with my taste on music . I have widen my horizon and place a finger to sounds that was previously unknown to me . I was soaked into Eyes set to kill and I was drown by the lyrics . It soothes me when I finally realize that my inner soul and Music are just like best friends and we relate closely with one another and Music understands how I feel . With Music by my side , I feel completely alone and it felt like I am on my own dimension whereby I can rock to every songs that I am listening too . Don't you feel the same way too ?

This week , I have three obstacles to go through . Introductory Chemistry Theory Test . Analytical Chemistry Practical and Analytical Chemistry Theory Test . Two done . One to go . Not going to lie , I feel a sudden pressure weighing on my shoulders and I am scared of what is in store . I am not bragging but I do put my thinking caps on and study BUT I guess I am not studying hard enough . Other commitments all comes knocking on my door at one go , and I am still learning how to divide my time generously . I know I can do it , but right now I do have my doubts . I guess I am mentally unstable .

Suntec Heats 2009 is on Saturday . I am seriously nervous and anxious about it . Gaining knowledge is the key but looking at my competitors , I can't help but to feel nausea . Tough I must say . Everyone is really unique in their own individual way . However , I am sure I will do my best . Insyaallah . May Allah be by my side .

The next day , I will be having Kranji Arts Festival Audition with my dearest Pillars . Using the routine we did for Suntec Auditions . Going to re-do the mix by tonight . My body is aching as I am not sleeping well and at the right posture . My back bone is seriously getting worst . I do need to get a check up for that . Being in College East is so far different than being in my Secondary school . Usually I was one of the few to be picked , and I was checked on my back bone , but in College East . Nothing like that has been offered , so therefore , I will proceed to my private clinic and get it checked .

Till here .
I am lethargic .
Have a nice Thursday Singapore

love ,
zimah

p.s
words .
words .
words .
how hard I try to remain positive
I guess this is it .

; Like a brand new day

2009-08-24T20:14:00.002+08:00

By Beyonce

Clouds filled with stars cover the skies
And I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air

It feels more than a blessings whenever I recollect my memories and retrace my steps to that one particular night . I beam . I glow and I can never seem to erase the smile plastered on my face . Yes , I do admit . Situations like this , it may never last . One day it is nothing but magic and the next , it seems like everything is washing down the drain . Therefore , I have learnt that never take any days for granted . Memories , be it good or bad . Keep it . Lock it safe in your hearts . I on the other hand , will not let my guards down .

On another note , school has been perfect . Silence can never be a part in the room . Theory Test was brain cracking but it was manageable , I did lost contact on details on Benzene Rings . Such luck for that but it is alright . Embrace positivity and charge through the papers like a karate kid . I still do need to get ample of knowledge to fight my last war which is on the 8th of September . Insyaallah , I and my classmates , be it Class A or B will do just fine . Insyaallah

My Pillar Syiqy is dropping by . *smiles widely*
So I shall stop here .
Plus to Helmi .
Get well soon .
=D

love ,
zimah

cuz’ for what I know .

You are worth every piece of me .

; Disappear

2009-08-23T23:41:00.002+08:00

Lately , I have been stuck to all Beyonce's song . I truly feel that the lyrics touches me soul in every way possible . Therefore , here I am sharing you the lyrics to this song called Disappear .

If I beg and if I cry would it change the sky tonight?
Will it give me sunlight?
Should I wait for you to call? Is there any hope at all?
Are you drifting by?

When I think about it I know that I was never held or even cared
The more I think about it the less that I was able to share with you
I try to reach for you, I can almost feel you
You're nearly here and then

You disappear
(Disappear, disappear, disappear)
You disappear
(Disappear, disappear, disappear)

And then I lie all by myself, I see your face, I hear your voice
My heart stays faithful
And time has come and time has passed, if it's good, it's got to last
It feels so right

When I think about it I know that I was never held or even cared
The more I think about it the less that I was able to share with you
I try to reach for you, I can almost feel you
You're nearly here and then

You disappear
(Disappear, disappear, disappear)
You disappear
(Disappear, disappear, disappear)
You, you disappear
(Disappear, disappear, disappear)
You disappear

I missed all the signs one at a time
You were ready
What did I know starting our lives
No, my love I'm ready to shine

When I think about it I know that I was never held or even cared
The more I think about it the less that I was able to share with you
I try to reach for you, I can almost feel you
You're nearly here and then

You disappear, you disappear
You disappear, you disappear, disappear

Jessica Sanchez is the best =D

love ,

zimah

; I got a feeling

2009-08-23T17:25:00.004+08:00

By Anthony Hamilton

My days seem long
whenever we're apart
it´s like someone had
thrown away my heart
you´re a major part of my life
And no matter what the
storm may bring
I´m fine with you,

And the point of it all
Is I love you
And the reason for it all
Is I love you

Every morning , when my eyes melts with warmness of the day , I tend to sit on the edges of my bed thinking of what is in store for me . Deep down , all I know is that my main aim is to be euphoric and just be happy . Lately , the things that I am going through is not what it seems , and I see that a change in me has become visible . I tend to keep everything to myself and I sometimes might appear quiet . Apparently , I am such a selfish girl indeed . Focusing on people's happiness instead of mine . I would rather see my dear ones all beam up and I can push myself to a side . Making people in their element is something I would love to do every single day . My heart is breaking , that I cannot lie , but it actually glimmers a sparkle of hope in my heart when I see my love ones smile .

Breathing in the positives right now . My head is in its zone . The next day , I will be sitting down for my second theory test on Introductory Chemistry . I have full faith that I will do just fine as I really did put my soul into it and study smart . General Formulas can be quite a haste , but I have to learn on loving it . Chem.Is.Try . To be honest , I did struggle my first few months in school . I have no knowledge at all in Chemistry . However , with those supports and never ending advises , I have strengthen my soul and I am doing just fine . May Allah be with me when I am taking my test tomorrow .

A person dear to me have been quite away for some time . Due to that , I realize that with that , I actually learn the elements of trust , understanding and patience . I have to admit , sometimes days could go by with me breaking down now and than . However , after evaluating and my soul is serene , I realize that I am learning . This is a journey . I know myself better and remarkably proud of myself . In times when everything seems so frail and at lost , I swear that I was on the verge of giving up . But , why give up on something that seriously means a lot to me . Therefore , note to self . Perseverance will pay off . One day . Insyallah

I truly miss My Pillars and My Girlfriends damn much . Looking forward to meeting My Pillars this week and looking forward to Chalet with Girlfriends .

&Oh wait
5-0
*beams with happiness*

Have a nice Sunday Singapore .
Another week is coming .
I hope you have ample of rest .
and go through the week like a champion .
I know you can

love ,
zimah

p.s
Abah , insyaallah if you are selected .
I so want to follow you to Qatar .

and to you ,
I seriously
miss you

; Maybe someday we will grow

2009-08-22T16:21:00.002+08:00

By Demi Lovato

now you told me on a sunday
that it wasn't gonna work
i tried to cry myself to sleep
cause it was supposed to hurt

we stand next to the fire
as the flame was burning out
i know what you were thinking
before you say it aloud

don't say you're sorry
cause i'm not even breaking
you're not worth the time that this is taking

Countless text messages and missed calls was all my eyes could stare at when my eyes greets the new day . Yes , initially I was suppose to head down to Orchard Central with My Pillars to give support to Shazran for his competition today . However , something struck me real hard at the back of the head . How can I possibly forget about the assignments which I was told to hand it up on Monday . Therefore , I had to sit that event out and sending my deepest apologies to Shazran for not attending . I am sure you will do your very best and my prayers goes out to you and I really do hope you will advance to the next round . Insyaallah .

Tension on my head is back on , most probably will be taking in my pills once more . I have already diligently started on the assign homework . It was in a way good process as I get to recap along the way . The things that I forget have already been captured . All I am left to do is to type and print the noted details and paste it on a huge piece of paper . Organic Chemistry you have been a good friend and a foe to me , do you know that *giggles*

I can not think of anything to write anymore . I do hope that everyone is having a great day .
May God bless you with happiness and success with every step you take .
Rest well everyone .
Plus to my fellow Manchester United mates and readers ,
let us give our fullest support in todays game .
May God be with them .
Have a nice Saturday Singapore .

love ,
zimah

p.s
lately I have been listening to RnB songs on my online radio
and it makes me smile .
I can go through this ordeal
with trust , patience and perseverance
I know I can

Suntec Heats 29th August .
Once AGAIN ,
I am very nervous

; A routine

2009-08-21T22:25:00.003+08:00

By Frankie J

Never feel alone 
Never feel there's no one there who cares for you 
When every door seems closed 
Mine is open wide for you 

I'll give you strength 
Restore your faith 
Im the one who'll be around if it all falls down 
I will hold you 

[Chorus] 
I'll be there if you break 
I'll be there if you crumble 
Come to you if you come undone 
Catch you if you stumble 
I'll do what it takes to put the pieces back in place 
If you break

Pouring rain , the cold wind plus the hustle and bustle of the streets of Bugis made a perfect scenario for me . How I really wish I could stand in the middle of the icy cold atmosphere and just shout at the top of my lungs . Precisely , I knew that having my period was not such a good vibe because it does reacts and take control of my body in a split second . I was feeling at the edge and I wish I could attempt something - something I have never did before . However , my mind was not on its best due to the fact that I am surrounded by a wonderful companion ; Dearest Hasween

Temptation sulk over me and I was in need of cash at that very spot . Accessories have been the reason to my latest cravings . Those shiny items caught my eye at an instant , plus I was fascinated at this silver necklace with a circle shaped clock as a pendent . My heart was thumping when I laid my eyes on those . Me and that item , we made a chemistry and seriously , I will get my hands on those and a few others .

Studio session with the girls . My mood went off key . I was fixed with maelstrom of emotions and it is not cool . However , I do feel something in me that is very very particularly wrong . I guess I should buy paper bags . Only me , myself and my bruised alter ego knows why . I despise this feelings but I guess it is true . Such a distracting scene I must say .

I need to diligently do my homework .
Plus I need to study
what more can I do right .
No calls anymore
no nothing .

Have a nice Saturday Singapore
and to all my Muslim friends .
Happy Fasting .

love ,
zimah

p.s
I guess this is time
time for me to wave that white flag
and give up on you
on myself .
this is it .

; I am waiting for my turn

2009-08-20T21:38:00.002+08:00

By Eyes set to kill

So hold your breath and spare me
The pointless conversation, I'm running out of patience
Don't blame me for trying to reach

Hush don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for
It hurts to reach you when I'm down
Don't speak again, I'm still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I'm down

The absence of a company makes the mind do wonders . It fuels up your engine and it feels like your whole body system was being alerted and it was active . Music was my companion for the bus rides and it feels like the songs that I place on Shuffle mode in one way or another reflects the current feelings I have right now . I felt every word from every song that I indulge today and I even repeated certain lines over and over again JUST to get the full depth of the sentences .

I have seen and heard how my close ones struggle and it cuts me deep to find out that they are equally hurt . Push me aside , let me just give my fullest attention to them because by just being there for them , it creates a whole new story . Words . Sentences . Paint a deeper picture and I truly conclude this , we girls will never understand them boys ; that I have to say . However , we are all human . Simple said , it works both ways . As much as we girls loathe them boys , them boys loathe us too . In addition , if we say that we can never understand them , they can say that THEY too do not ever understand us . All I am trying to say is , LOVE is tough . No one claims it to be easy . Our parents , grand-parents have a fair share of hurt , and if they can come up strong , WHY CAN'T WE . Take LOVE as something you learn and grow from . Blessings to those who have found their love and is in love . My well wishes to all of you . And to some if you don't , look on the bright side , love is actually surrounding you . Open your eyes . Love yourself and you will feel the love of others radiating through your skin . I am learning too . I too believe that everyone deserves to be happy .

On the other side , I widely am sad that I will not be fasting for the first 5 days . Bummer . Oh Dance Practices tomorrow . Contented because I can see them pillars

Have a nice Friday Singapore
be happy always .
Love is surrounding you
remember that

love ,
zimah

; Esplanade Library

2009-08-20T13:36:00.002+08:00

By Miley Cyrus

So I put my hands up
They’re playing my song,
And the butterflys fly away
Noddin’ my head like yea
Movin my hips like yea
I got my hands up,
They’re playin my song
I know im gonna be ok

Currently , ARziLAH is not complete because there is only the two of us ; obviously as told as the pictures above *smiles* . Dearest Nabilah will be meeting us at 2.30 pm at City Hall and we will proceed to her workplace to get our study heads ingest to the notes given . Initially , I was not planning to go as My Pillars Syiqy requested to come to my house to study but than again , she will be heading down to the same place as us and we shall study our ass off .

ARziLAH have been a source of laughter in my daily life . The are like sun rays who creep shinely in my system . At night , they will "tukar shift" and become my "tiang lampu" *giggles* . I guess the stuff we three are going through somehow one way or another relates the three of us . The struggles , The Pain , everything . I am truly bless to actually get to know them on a whole new level . Simply said , I heart and adore them to the ocean's deep .

I guess , simple words explains everything . A very short post for today . I might write a proper one at night I guess .

Have A nice day Singapore

love ,
zimah

p.s
I miss you
deeply .

Oh . last but certainly not the least .

; I thought this would stay

2009-08-19T19:21:00.002+08:00

By Leona Lewis

fork in the road,  looking both ways,
i don't know which way to go.
what do i count on?
is it the road less traveled?
or the one i already know?
and no i'm not traveling alone
i got my heart in my hand, and
you can bet i'm holding it close

don't wanna climb,  don't wanna fall
don't know where to start it all
i can start by taking it slow

first i need a hero,  i got a mirror,
looking inside of my soul.
if i need a  hero, i got my, mirror,
gotta go on with the show

Dreams were cut short when my phone began to rang . As I allow the sun rays to creep into my eyes , I brushed my fingers on my bed and grab hold of that cell . I could not place a finger to where my mood lies . I was stuck with maelstrom of emotions , but on the contrary , I was feeling well lively . I breathe in the air that nature has to offer and took my steps to school .

Analytical Chemistry Practical was at ease . Quite easy to prepare the standard solutions but at first I was struggling with the calculations but I am truly bless to have such great classmates who actually help me out with the whole thing and I understand the concept fully . I hope that this would be tested in my next Phase Test , the only part that I seriously loathe is the section whereby I will have to Balance my Analytical Balance . I failed at that honestly .

Introductory Chemistry Lectures have finally come to and end . 4Th of September will be the last day of school for me before trudging myself with armour for my Examinations . Dearest Artiya , Nabilah and myself was so not in our studying zone . We were scribbling here and there and we giggling to our "Penny of Thoughts" sections . I have no clue why I am so stoked today . Maybe because of *giggles* , the two of them should know why .

Recently , I was in a conversation with AhPok , and we talked about this Gore movie . I am so going to watch it online today . AhPok got disturb in the class today , like a lot ! *giggles* . Hong Kong Power .

Well , let us all come together and pray . I hope my Dad have been selected to work in Qatar , which also means that we will be flying there too as well . So prays hard .

I am done .
In my mind I have a lot of questions and doubts
but I'll hang them for a moment

Have a nice Thursday Singapore

love ,
zimah

p.s
I am confuse .
I seriously am .
How .
what am I suppose to do .

; Nature takes its course

2009-08-18T20:04:00.002+08:00

By Christina Milian

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more
I would still have you, baby
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war
I'll be fighting with you, baby
Cause I know if I'm falling, you won't let me hit the ground
If the boat is sinking, I know you won't let me drown

No matter what anyone could say
This is the only place for me
And no one could ever take that away
Nothing could come between us

The boxes of individual dates on my calendar for the Month of August seem to be empty . However , there is one particular day and date that I will never ever forget and that is today , the 18th of August . It means a lot to me because someone whom has been with me through thick and thin turns a year older and a year wiser as of today . Yes , I am talking about my one and only brother , Muhammad Haziq Ismail . I am truly bless with having him as my older brother , who seem to crack me up when my days are dull and cranky . Who always appear at my room at the most oddest times to do a little joke or a little dance routine . Who always gives me advises and never gives up on me when times seem like I do not even care . He stood by me , and for that , I am truly bless .

Here I am , showering my love and my prayers to him . May Allah grant him with success and happiness in his fruitful journey as an adult . May Allah bless him with the love , care and support that he ever needs and I pray to God to make him smile everyday because he is worth the happpiness . I know Abang has been keeping an eye on my blog for quite some time , so here is something for you Abang . I guess those presents will have to wait . *giggles*

School was surprisingly good . I have to fight all temptations of not skipping school now because lessons even if it does bore me at certain parts , I am truly contented with the people who I am surrounded with . My brain cells have been depleting at an increasing rate and I am nervous wreck about it , I cannot seem to store a few more information BUT I am trying my best . Analytical Chemistry today was a laid back one . Touch on Density on Bulky Items and how to calculate and stuff . To me , it sounds more like physics than chemistry . Bus journey home was such a NO-NO . The timings are real bad , will never catch the bus at that time no more . Something happen to me , and I did not know if I should laugh at the person or not , but I was standing in front of this tall chinese guy and he was happily sleeping and suddenly I could feel a huge bang on the back of my head . A few seconds later , I realize that his head banged onto mine and he was so damn malu , and I could see from his facial expression . *giggles*

Currently at home AND relaxing . I need to get my brain juices flowing because for I need to come up with another routine for Suntec Heats . I guess my brain is not on my side now , and I am sure my brain is very lethargic to the maximum . Methane , Ethane , Propane , Butane , Pentene , Hexene etc ... have been infesting my brain *abang is on my bed , strumming his guitar and singing to a lame ass song and I am laughing my ass off* , and Mama is ordering Pizza (shakes boobies)*

I need all the rest I can get . And I am very well happy because I got a call from Someone and I am happy happy happy . Next week . You make SURE ok *huge smile* . We will count the stars together !

Have a nice and pleasant week Singapore .
I love you Readers .

love ,
zimah

; Just can't find the words

2009-08-17T21:31:00.002+08:00

By Karina

Now I know I come off kinda shy
But it's hard to say what's on my mind
The chemistry we have is hard to find
But to find the right words it's going to take some time

And all I know is when we're together
No one can make me feel the way you do baby
I wish each moment can last forever
It's hard to explain the way I feel for you
(I just can't find the words)
You got me loosing myself
In what I'm trying to say
And it's so hard to fight it
Can't help but feelin' this way
And every time that I'm near you it's like my heart gets weak.
Feels like I'm loosing my breath makin' it hard to speak.

I just can't find the words

No , I am not and never going to claim that my Monday was a terrible one , instead it was cruising at the right lane and I am truly am euphoric . Lecture was quite a strain and I was struggling to stay awake . The topics covered were tough and it touches on how to make Ester . I was literally shaking myself up and get my mind fully on the slides . On another note , I am thinking of taking up on an Elective which is all about Micro-biology . It goes into full depth into bacterias , and I am widely interested in that kind of studies . Insyaallah that I am able to take up on that in my second year .

I took the bus home and it was a pleasant and relaxing one . My mind was drifted far enough to bring me into another dimension . I was really soaked in my sleep that when I finally caught hold of the reality , I have safely reach the stop . I was lethargic and I could feel a mysterious pain on my feet and I was biting my lips to stand that excruciating pain . I was texting the whole journey and I am quite sad that another day is going by without meeting someone . But I totally understand . *giggles* . I was craving for Roti Prata Cheese Chocolate but than again I guess my cravings will have to wait . I am widely amuse by a text that someone gave , and I was feeling really stoked about it to an extent that I actually was kind enough to go to a shopping center near me to shop for some groceries for Mama .

I foresee another bright day ahead the next day and the whole of this week . I seriously cannot wait for the fasting month to fall upon us Muslim . I feel a sense of calm , serene and peace whenever this holy month arrives . I am looking forward for prayers on Friday night with Dearest Hasween . I hope the other girls tag along too because we got to send our love to the Mighty One above for showering us with never ending blessings .

So I guess this is it .
Have a nice rest Singapore .
Every single one of you deserves a good sleep .

love ,
zimah

p.s
next week .
next week .
next week .

*huge smile*

; Feel it coming in the air

2009-08-16T17:15:00.004+08:00

By TLC

We got tonight all alone baby
No distractions no if and or maybes
Lately we haven't had to time to
Do the things we usually do
I've been thinking bout something
Real special for you
And I want you to be good to me too

To me , it is never a good feeling to wake up and find yourself stuck in a silent atmosphere , but today , I made an exception . My body system has been infested by fatigue and the aches are beginning to mount . I seriously figure that I need a long and warm massage for my backbone or else it will definitely grow worst . I was seriously damn drain after my Bowling Tournament to an extent that I crash on my bed and slept with my contacts on .

Peculiar dreams and surreal moments were harbouring in my direction . I was not please with it because the dreams that I dreamt involves the people whom I place my devotion and love to . However , by far the most worst section was seeing one of my Pillars die . I swear I could shed a tear in my sleep because for I know that I would never want that to happen in my life . I have to admit that , a few parts were of to a laughing matter . The scenarios , the place it was held , the priceless expressions , THAT I took close notice of . But like I say again , I am not please with the dreams . Not cool at all .

The night before , I was surrounded with negativity and it was in a way suffocating me and my emotions and it feels like I am deprive of air . I am very much tired of the same old routine everyday ; Waiting by the edges of the bed while waiting for a particular thing to happen . I feel at loss and I just felt like giving everything up and start myself back onto square one , BUT deep in me , I know that I should never let me eat me . So I am giving my inner demon a fight for their money and I will still keep on hanging and persevering on . There is only one person who can make me happy and on a whole level and that is ; me

Awaiting anxiously for the game to begin . Let time clock by . In the meantime , I shall get my rest .

Have a nice Sunday Singapore .
Week-days are soon to be back
enjoy while you can

love ,
zimah

p.s I don't know what to do no more .

; Video-phone

2009-08-16T01:20:00.002+08:00

First Part : Shazran and Fauzie killing that perfect song -__-'' .
Second Part : Interrupted by Alif
Third Part : Speech given by Aryll and Shazran

First Part : Fauzie and Shazran dancing to "Work" by Ciara and hitting everyone in the same time
Second Part : "Meletah" Kak Z did it also

First Part : Azlan walking towards Kak Z
Second Part : "Proposing" but got rejected *giggles*

Last but certainly not the least
Yours truly =D

; Focus . Get priorities straight

2009-08-16T00:27:00.002+08:00

By Jesse McCartney

Lookin' at you now I can tell
That you and your new relationship ain't goin' well
There's no reason your name should come up on my cell
Unless you're unhappy but that shouldn't be the case

'Cause you said said he was the one
Baby yes you said said you were in love
'Cause when you left me you said that you wouldn't be
Comin' back remember that but I never agreed

The signs of jubilation surfaces up when I found out that today marks the kick off for a brand new season of the English Premiere League . I will never ever miss out on Manchester's first match the following day at 2030 hours . I am very well euphoric . Finally my nights on my week ends will never seem so dull and sour . *giggles*

Oh my , I hate the feeling when I know something major will come up on my future days . Yes I am talking about my Theory Test Two , Introductory Chemistry . Chapters after chapters to read and go through . This time , the paper will be slightly difficult as it will be touched on Organic Chemistry . All the alkenes , alkanes , phenol , butanols and many more are taking half of the space in my brain cells and that is so terribly not cool at all . I am tired just thinking about it . I will soaked myself in fully the next day after my Bowling Tournament . So therefore , it means that I got to sit out for Shazran's competition , but than again , I will try my best to make it .

As you know , today marks the day whereby the auditions for Suntec Dance Competition commences . I am remarkably proud of my young ones . To point out specifically , Syiqy and Dinah . I see major improvements in both of them and I am really bless and really happy that they have become as what they are now . "CANNOT" is not in our dictionary and I guess they have learn about that in depth . No , we did not made it to the next round , but it was all good . We deserve the break after what we have gone through . All the secret meetings and such . *giggles* As for me , I got to work harder and go through Heats on 29th August .

Our after competition was well spent with Freekzy and Ameer plus Hafiz . I will post up videos of Shazran and Fauzie doing their random things . I have yet to receive a footage from Dearest Hasween . It records MOST of the hilarious stuff that the boys did at Far East . My tummy still hurts and my mind spins with joy whenever I think of it . As the boys were at one middle corner , Liyana . Dinah . Bee . Abang Faliq and myself we busy playing Monopoly (cards) . Awesome shiat . I will get my hands on those .

Oh finally . Thank you Kak Z for the Starbucks drink . I know it was dumb for me to do all the stuff I did the day before so I had to suffer all consequences BUT with you and the others around , I feel perfectly safe .

Have a nice Sunday Singapore
ENJOY while you can

love ,
zimah

p.s
i need you .

; Hi . Do I know you

2009-08-15T00:16:00.003+08:00

By Karina

Now we've been talking for a while;
And you got me tryin to figure out
boy i don't know what to say to you
but you got me feelin some kind of way for you

and all i know is when we're together
no one can make me feel the way you do baby
i wish each moment can last forever
its hard to explain the way i feel for you

I can feel the after effects reacting on me . My consequences , and therefore , I shall deal with the pain . For a second , I was on the verge of continuing where I left off and in high hopes that the effects will prolong until the next day , however , countless of images of My Pillars run across like a movie and I knew I had to stop and just chill myself down ; My first .

Super psych for the next day . For the love of my passion , I have decided to gain some knowledge and experience through this competition . May God stay by my side and whatever unthinkable stuff I did today , I hope it did not distract me the next . I am sure , there will be tons of awesome dancers who is well equip with wicked skills . As for me , I will just go with the flow and have endless fun . & oh . Surprise Surprise . Be there to find out *giggles*

Have a nice week-end Singapore
I got to get back studying to my Organic Chemistry

love ,
zimah

p.s
I miss you
&
I miss you
&
I miss you

; My Lil' Kid

2009-08-14T12:31:00.002+08:00

By Shedaisy

I don't know what you're doin'
And I don't know where you are
But I look up at that great big sky
And I hope you're wishin' on that same
bright star

I wonder, I pray

Reality have not yet soaked me in , and when it does ; emotions will run like a fountain . News be it the good or the bad can creep into your life when you least expect it . The good ones is always been looked forward while the bad ones , we need ample of time to indulge it fully . The heart sank deeper when words collided , even if sentences seemed to be of a laughing matter , I know deep down , everyone of us are hiding the secret feelings in a lonely chamber . Life is unfair , that is true but at the end of the day , I see success in her path in the near future and with that , I am learning to let go day by day .

Never a good feeling that I must admit , but than again , if her soul is at ease and is happy , than ours will be too . We want the best of her . Knowledge . Wisdom . Personality . Attributes . She has all that , and we know that she will shine in the new environment . If she goes , her heart will always be with us , just that each of us will get like 1/6 of it *giggles* .

And when we are up on that stage , our soul is dedicating to you . Whatever we do , our mind will be at you . The strength we will gather , the perseverance we will equip . We will make you proud . I promise that .

But for now ,
you are here with us now . Time can never be slowed down nor stop . Therefore , every seconds , every minutes and every hours spend with you will be worthwhile . I swear . Every bits and pieces of you will be lock and key in every of our respective distinct memories . Because for you are , one of a kind & mark this , no one can ever replace you .

My Lil' Kid .
you shower not only me but the other Pillars with joy and laughter .
can never lie that bad occasions do haunt us , but we were strong to overcome it .
and when the day come ,
we gave our heart and word that we will be there for you .

Sincerely
I love you .

love ,
zimah

; Taking that risk , I adore you

2009-08-14T02:33:00.004+08:00

By Beyonce

Head down as i watch my feet take turns hitting the ground
Eyes shut, i find myself in love racing the earth
And i soaked in your love
And love is right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong

The heart confirms the declaration yet the mind is very afraid .
The heart showers the support yet the mind is still afraid .
The heart is ready to take that chance yet the mind shivers with fear .
The heart tries its very best and finally the mind let go of all fears .

I guess I am the only one who knows fully what it meant . Sometimes I do wonder if what I am doing is what's best for me . At the end of the day , I see myself as the girl who waits patiently for a specific number , and rejecting the others . If you know me very well , you know I'll give my all . But right now , I sense a huge lump of fear deep in me . Will things end like those before . I have to admit , I see this as a one sided thing UNLESS the truth is out , and I am just hoping that day will come .

But for now , I am not afraid to overcome that fear and take risk . Because sincerely , deep down . I know I do . *smiles*

Time check : 2.44 in the morning and I am happily blabbering on nonsensical stuffs *giggles*

Have a nice Friday Singapore

love ,
zimah

p.s
xoxo *giggles*
the stars are waiting .
*smiles*

; Let's make this real

2009-08-13T00:27:00.002+08:00

By Lifehouse

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything he does is beautiful
Everything he does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

We had to catch our breathe every few minutes and the intensity of the song have really soaked us in and we were in our own dimension . I guess we better work on those stamina *giggles* . I truly believe and conclude that everyone will be having serious aches here and there . Put it in a positive way , we are forming some hard muscles in the near future . Have to thank God that everything is done and there are bits and pieces of the the puzzle to be clean up . All in all , I am just bless .

On a funny note , My Pillars and I were walking back to the train station and we were gross out by a dustbin which was filled with trash . As we were walking , we were talking about "Rats" . Dearest Deen , Syiq and Myself we were ahead of the group and Syiq was confidently speaking about making that rat a trampoline if she sees one . On the back , Kak Z , Sasha and Bee were trailing and out of a sudden , Bee screamed . With that , it caused a massive chain reaction and Deen started to scream , at that point of time , Myself and Syiq was still on the "trampoline" sentences and as soon as we heard Deen scream and Bee's distant scream , we both started screaming our lungs out and just kept running non stop . I know , our face was really a classic hit . Syiq even wished that we actually were recording that moment . And now , I guess my voice is hiding behind a huge rock because it is starting to sore .

One more happy thing is that , my Analytical Chemistry Lecture which is due on Friday has been cancel which meant that , I do not have to trudge my heavy legs to school on that day AND I can jolly well have that sleep I need . Rejuvenate myself fully . Life skills tomorrow and I am pretty sure that it is laid back once again . Happy Happy . Oh , I have Introductory Chemistry Test coming up on Monday which also meant that NO TIME for fooling around . The topics tested are Organic Chemistry and I am damn glad because I have indulge fully with that BUT I still do think I need to brush up on certain stuff .

It's near to 1 in the morning
AND I have school .
Not cool at all .

Have a nice Thursday Singapore

love ,
zimah

p.s
the thing that both you and I know .
I miss you
so
so
much .

; You are my fire when I am cold

2009-08-11T18:23:00.005+08:00

By Oasis

Backbeat, the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how

Edited .

On a flip side . School has been really nice to me . ARziLAH spend our most chilling day in school . Lectures were short and Practicals were simple . It was of real humour when I found out that I was having a test on that very day . School starts at 3pm tomorrow and I am thanking God for that because it meant that I can have my long hours of sleep .

Anticipating for tomorrow . Thursday and Friday . I will be spending my glorious time with My Pillars . Sleep overs will be done . In God's willing . My heart is whining because I want the days to roll in smoothly . All in all , I am stoked and ecstatic with the presence of such beautiful and crazy girls and deep down ; I LOVE YOU ALL LIKE FUCK YOU NA-BUEY CHEEBYE *giggles*

Have a nice day Singapore .
The week is going to end
Hang in there .

love ,
zimah

; Look upon the stars and thank those blessings

2009-08-11T00:04:00.003+08:00

By Erykah Badu

I met him when I was a little girl he gave
He gave me poetry and he was my first
But in my heart I knew, I wasn't the only one
Cause when the tables turned he had to break up
Whenever I got lonely, needed some advice
He gave me his shoulder, his words were very nice
That is all behind me,
Cause now there is no other
My love is his and his is mine,
My friend became my....
Love of my life, you are my friend
Love of my life, I can depend
Love of my life, without you baby
Feels like I sampled true love, yeah

The feelings that I am experiencing now is such a bliss and I can never stop saying my blessings for I know the one above is listening close attention to my prayers . The future might be a little hazy but God has given me one of the best days of the year , and I am thankful for that . Deep down , I wish the night could last .

This might be a short post buy anyway , ABDC season 4 is back on , so do check it out . The season is really raw and new with new crews to spice up the whole show . Lovers , you should watch the final battle , it is freaking awesome .

Have a nice Tuesday Singapore .
Have plenty of rest
and spend time with your love ones wisely

love ,
zimah

p.s
I am falling for you .

; Kalau Cinta Jangan Cengeng

2009-08-10T01:33:00.003+08:00

By Natasha Bedingfield

Read some Byron, Shelly and Keats
Recited it over a Hip-Hop beat
I'm having trouble saying what I mean
With dead poets and drum machines
I know I had some studio time booked
But I couldn't find a killer hook
Now you've gone & raised the bar right up
Nothing I write is ever good enough

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There's no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you...

It was of to great miracle and luck that my side effects have already vanish itself into thin air . Initially , I am never a big fan of travelling by sea because I know the feelings of nausea will always creep into my body system , but however , none of that actually matters because it was never present on that trip . Applause will you *giggles*

Before I get started , I would like to ask . Where can you watch awesome Indonesian movies online ? My eyes caught the attention of a story tittle ; "Kalau Cinta Jangan Cengeng" . Therefore , I would love to feast my eyes and plug my ears on that particular movie . So any ideas ?

My mind have been questioning my inner thoughts lately , and it is no fun at all . Not cool . However , slowly crossing out that unwanted questions makes it easier to breathe in the inside . I have learnt something about life , and of course myself . Sacrifices can work in both ways , but it is up to you to take something from that sacrifice and learn from it BECAUSE you are the one who experience it first handed . The good and the Bad will always be there to linger in you , to make you feel AND touch on reality BUT never take this for granted and NEVER regret the decisions you make , because at the end of the day , THE heart knows you , yourself the best and the heart has made that decision , so learn on how to trust it .

I have been telling My Pillars to never be afraid of what lies ahead . To always do their very best because I see talent befalls on each and every individual . To be an inspiration and to inspired in every way possible . God has bless them with Natural gifts and is up to them to make it into good use . Never let fear reside their system and fight every demons in them for THEY are their own competitors . Surround with the people whom give you first class love and support and everything in this world seemed at peace . I am learning myself and I am sure they are too because in my eyes , day by day , I see them blossom perfectly under the well given light .

In short , my trip out of town was laid back . I was thinking about you the whole time even if there were distractions *giggles* . The hotel was great , the food was splendid . The only thing I was engross was the news about Nordin Top . Every of their channels are repeating them . And they made a coincidental discovery . Here it goes .

0808 is the day that they "killed" him
18 is the number of hours that they hunted him

scary huh .

So I am dead beat .
Therefore I shall get my rest
I am going shopping with Mama and Bik Pia and Raiyan
after which I might be ______
men ,
I don't know what I am feeling
but it feels good .

Happy Birthday Singapore
I so will watch the ENCORE

love ,
zimah

; Never had the luck

2009-08-08T00:34:00.003+08:00

By Kelly Clarkson

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want
Since you been gone

The body was very much fatigue once my heavy legs step into the front door . My pillar Sasha and myself already made a quick plan to rest our heads straight after we settled down , but ended up it was me who was having my quick rest . Despite me being sleeping , one way or another , I could feel the surroundings and apparently there was one part whereby Sasha brought the webcam to my face as she was happily video calling Bee . Nice one , I am very sure my face is really classic .

Met up with the other pillars and everyone was really drain out but we got to keep our mentality strong and keep on persevering . Before hand , each and every one of us build this strongly foundation wall in front of us because we feel that something will try to crash that wall of ours any time soon . We know a huge wave of tsunami is coming ahead of us , and when it did , nothing actually happen . That tsunami actually cause us to be bolder and stronger and I am sure my young ones have become much more mature in this process .

I trudged down to Zhenghua Community Center to meet up a friend of mine and as I was entering the studio , I met the boys of Killa Move Crew . No words can express how I feel and I sincerely do miss them ; each and everyone . The boys being the same old same old made me crack up with their silly antics and Syam is forever annoying *giggles*

So its , 12.45 in the morning and I have yet to admit defeat . My system is really down and there are tons of stuff that are racing through my mind . I got to be strong . Note to self .

Have a nice week-end Singapore .
& since I am out of town ,
Happy BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE .

& have I told'cha
my school turn into a mini carnival ?
funny as hell

love ,
zimah

p.s
if that boy don't love you by now .
it is best to leave him
because no matter how hard you try
you are always on the lowest point
i should have known
figures .

; A confession

2009-08-07T08:23:00.001+08:00

I am actually rushing against time to head to school for Lectures , yet I have to send a short post right about now .

I have a confession ,

I dreamt about you yesterday ,

&

it felt so good and warm

and I realize that ,

I ended up waking up with watery cheeks .

and I further realize that ,

i miss you very much

and to this point ,

I do not mind taking risk ,

but I do have my doubts .

Adik Dinah , thanks for being there when I was so low yesterday ...

I do not know how much time I have said this ,
but deep down
I miss you

Have a nice day Singapore

love ,
zimah

; Not prepared for a busted knee

2009-08-06T23:43:00.002+08:00

By Mishon

This right here is gonna make it clear.
That I've been tryna wait for you to see me here.
It's crazy cause no girl has made me wait like this.
I'm used to having whatever a guy could wish.
I see you wasting time making me feel like I want to want you so bad.
I'm 'bout to lose my mind (Yeah)

Feel like I'm in the play-offs, sitting on the bench.
Begging the coach to put me in.
And sometimes I get the sense;
The game's gonna end and my team's not gonna win.

This lethargic day ended up with me having a busted right knee . Not cool . Seriously . Initially , this pain have been present ever since I went for rehearsals for Da'shocase but it died down but after today , I am sure the pain will persist longer than expected . Abah was being such a love , he help me crush them ice and place it in a bag and tied in on my injured knee and the pain was excruciating I must say . Tears would pop out any time soon .

So anyway , school was school . Dearest Artiya , Nabilah , Helmi and Myself bought this Extreme Sour candy and we dared one another . The reaction was funny and the video taken was really classic . Before that , when I was taping out , I heard my name was called amongst the crowd . I could not tell who speak of my name , because when his friends pointed at him , his face was hiding beneath his arms , so I conclude that a faceless species actually knows me . *giggles*

I went to have lunch with Adik Ash . We had Japanese Cuisine . The buffet was splendid . The food kept on coming and I was wondering when it would stop . Adik Ash was like a water tank . One second the huge glass is full than the next second it is empty . We talked and talked about certain stuff and like I say , same page , same level . However time was being such an ass , I had to rush down to meet my pillars at Suntec .

Met up with the other Pillars and I love the day . Really LOVE it . I seriously am anticipating for the day . I love each and everyone of you .

& to that boy
I miss you so much .
I really do .
I still would want to celebrate your birthday . Or shall I say belated with you
cuz I really miss you
I really REALLY do
=(

something in me tells me to give up .

Have a nice Friday Singapore .

love ,
zimah

; In your arms is where I would want to stay

2009-08-05T23:54:00.003+08:00

By Karina

Why can't I love you in slow motion,
Take my time,
Take away the pressure on my mind
Really get to know you
But rewind
Wanna love you in slow motion
Why can't I?

You seem to know just what you want
And I like your confidence
Some things a girl should never rush
Cause If you do you hurt yourself

A new day is about to be born in less that 2 minutes time , and yet I have not breathed in the rest that I needed fully . This is my second post for today and it marks on how boredom can really get my nerves and brains going at such an hour . Many thoughts are filled in my storage system , and I am happy to say that most of them are the good ones . I was glad enough that the company I had was an absolute bliss . In another way , their presence is actually in simpler terms ; to take care of me and to attend to some stuff as well .

I had my medicine a couple of hours ago and I despise one of it so much . The tablet is so huge and if you know me well , I equals to Pharmacophobia ; locked and keyed in my system . I was practically choking myself with it and my heartbeats were racing like mad when I had to ingest them all up . It was a hilarious scenario for me actually .

& hello Thursday .
I love you so very much
because , I will end school way early .
*jumps with joy*

Have a nice day Thursday Singapore .

love ,
zimah

; One step at a time

2009-08-05T11:34:00.002+08:00

By Ina

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

That walking journey to the clinic was a pleasant one despite the fact that the pain at the back of my head was still present . The queue was rather reasonable and I rested on Mama shoulders while waiting for my number to flash . When it was about time , I came clean with the pain that I have been experiencing for the past month and I undergo a slight procedure . However , my childhood doctor concluded that if the pain still persist , I will have to go for scanning , and therefore that is the reason why I am at home and not in school . Any more questions you instigator ? Stop being in my face will you . You are seriously annoying me . GO away .

I on the other hand is very much anxious and nervous for the day to come . The support of people whom I love have made me stronger and I am sure myself and the others will do great on the day itself . I still do think that there are areas to be polish up , and I am sure that we can do it . Yesterday was the shit . Cracking of ideas were done , fooling around here and there but we came serious to some point . It was all good . Insyaallah , everything will be good .

I cannot wait for tomorrow to come . Will be dining with Ash for lunch . Japanese food are my favourites and I am sure looking forward to it . After which , I will rush down to meet my Pillars to send in some stuff and than back home to do our finish up what is not yet already done .

I foresee a good week for me .
Insyaallah .

Have a nice rest Singapore .
& Congratulations to Joyce and the Boys
You made Singapore proud , and because of you .
The dance scene in Singapore will grow together as one and strong .
Insyaallah .
You have my utmost respect .

love ,
zimah

; Get ready to feast your ears

2009-08-03T20:48:00.003+08:00

By Keri Hilson

i found my way through the clouds
no more running scared and closing my eyes
ohh
i will be true this love from my heart
i'm laying my life on the line Hook:
ohh i will survive
as long as it's you by my side

As promised , I made my way to school once I sneak some rest into my lethargic system . I came clean with Mama about my schedules today , I see there is no need for me to be hiding this sorts of stuff because at the end of the day , guilt will always haunt you . Keep that in mind . The journey to school was a torture , that I can never lie . I have reasons to that and I am glad Mama was texting me and keeping me safe even if she was heavily engross with her hectic work .

It felt like I was being picked up from a box and being place in such a huge school with no where to go . Darling Nabilah was not answering my calls neither did she gave a response to my text . I have to thank Liyana and her friends for keeping me company and just a few seconds later , Darling Nabilah was right before my very eyes . The school's library is retarded , the reception can suck some nasty egg yolks ! *giggles*

Practical was such a laid back thing but it dragged more than the usual time , that makes me slightly infuriated . But , surrounded with amazing people makes it lively . Some stuff happen in the lab and no offence dude , I was seriously hoping for some Emergency Shower action . Feeling Feeling that video la kan .

Back home , AND I am naturally exhausted . I was doing some choreography in the toilet and Myself , Bee and Sasha are anticipating for tomorrow . Let me keep it on the down low for a moment , but the truth will be out very soon and we just pray for the very best . Simply said , some specific stuff are not meant for specific ears .

& oh , I got a huge bump on the back of my head . Reason being I was laughing too hard on the bus to a point whereby I smack my head to the railings . Silly of me to do so , but it was a funny and hilarious yet another classic moment of me .

Heading to Tanjung Pinang ; Indonesia over the week-ends . Looking forward to stay at a new hotel . Abah wants me to receive the Javanese massage But I on the other hand decline profusely because I despise the feelings of someone cracking my vulnerable bones *giggles*

and yes ,
i miss you
and i miss you

Have a nice rest Singapore
I am sure everyone of you deserves a good night sleep

love ,
zimah

; The voice inside my head

2009-08-03T09:31:00.003+08:00

By Blink 182

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime
And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight

A surge of disappointments always raced through my veins whenever my eyes open to greet the hot and sunny Monday . I despise the start of the new week , I really do . I am overcome with real exhaustion to an extend that I had to miss my first theory lessons as my system was totally shut down and I could not even barge myself to wake up entirely . However , I am still dragging my heavy legs to school for Practicals later on . Apparently , once I am done with it , tomorrow will be the last practical of Year One . Applause for that .

So anyway , Sundays was well spent with My Pillars . We were discussing on a certain issue and everyone touched it on the same level . The feelings were there , but none of us were actually speaking out the truth . So therefore , after yesterday , I felt that our barriers have finally admitted defeat and we could not prolong and withstand with that kind of situations . Call us dumb if you may , but if you were in our shoes , you will understand what really goes down in our respective life's .

My body is aching and I am trying to persevere as hard as I can . I know I am stronger than this . I know I have to keep my faith and guard up and survive this tiring week . I am up for anything , for all I know that I will be having a relaxing week-end out of town with my lovely parents . I will get the rest that I want and crave in the hotel , or maybe I could dip myself in hot water bath tub for hours and hours while eating strawberries dip in chocolate . *Dreams*

All in all , I am really looking forward for more splendid moments to be shared and spent .
Have a nice Week-days Singapore .
Persevere on with what ever you do
and I am sure God will shower his blessing to you .
Insyaallah

love ,
zimah

; surrounded by awesome people

2009-08-01T22:36:00.005+08:00

By Ashanti

Can you rock with me
Non-stop with me
Can you take it to the top with me
I just wanna love you baby
Always thinking of you babe

Can you roll with me
All over me
Can you take control of me
I just wanna love you baby
Always thinking of you baby

A certain and specific call brought me into jubilation avenue . I miss everything about it and even if I do sound really worn out , deep inside me I was similarly to a little girl whom just got a new set of Barbie . My hand phone was being cruel to me and it almost died so therefore , I noted down the number and lucky that I am at my Grand-parents which means that I can make that call through the house phone . Skip this , but in short . I really do ; miss you

The lack hours of sleep I indulge resulted in me prolonging the set time of me supposedly to wake myself up . Therefore , I was rushing here and there and I was late , real late . I really have to send huge apologies to Dearest Sasha and Dinah . We came to our destination at the second half of the competition . And Oh , during our Red Line journey to Somerset , we three were happily watching Little Rascals at my laptop . Continue . *giggles* . Upon reaching , we did the usual things with the usual people , and it is good to see each and everyone of them .

A huge roar arose during a certain slot . I am sure those who were there knows what I am talking about . I doubt that they know , but than again , they are like one of the major top crews in Singapore , so you should have known . Anyway , the battle was awesome . Everyone did a tremendously amazing job . To cut things short , Congratulations to all crews that have sail through the next round which is going to be held at Genting .

Had lunch over at Long John . Kak Zeella was so all out just now plus the girls went crazy over a shop that sells accessories . Headed down to Bukit Batok to watch Love and Term's performance . The bus ride was full with stories and news . Sharings of information here and there and everyone was on the same page . All in all , it was a great day spent .

I realize that in this post , my sentence structure is quite complicated and complex .
If you understand it , I am amaze and applaud you for that ,
but
if you do not , I am really sorry about that .

Have a nice and relaxing Sunday Singapore .

love ,
zimah

p.s (It is good to see Rhyfresh as what we are back in those days . I miss each and everyone of you and yes , the whole lot of us will go out very soon . Insyallah)

; Listen to the words

2009-07-31T22:59:00.004+08:00

By Jordin Sparks

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Here is the deal . If sparks flare earlier on , I deeply apologize to you for that . However , I truly am greatly appreciative of your concerns and advises , but than again , as a human I do have my alter ego . I have a group of people whom I seek and find my comfort too and you are not one of them . With this specific group , I narrate everything about what am I going through from A to Z and they always have the full scoop of a certain situation that I am about to fulfill and with that , they will address some matters of the heart to me and I do listen to them because they are already aware of what is going on . Unlike you , you have no clue what my life was like this past few months and like I said earlier on , I respect and thank you for those advises , but than again . It feels like you let it all go blindly without knowing the full 101 . So for that , I have said my piece and yes , no hard feelings .

On the flip side . I was stoked that I met up with Dearest Wawa even if it was for a short while . If it was not for the performances held in her school , I would not have meet her up and get connected with her life after so long . Bonus , our performance was awesome despite the fact that the area was dark and we were surrounded by Rock Dudes . Some were really eye catching I must say . I learnt a little bit of popping today and it was damn good . I have the feel of it and right now , I would want to learn and go deeper in that style . We did some hilarious stuff just to kill the time and it was to me a very fun day .

I am really lethargic
Dance Crown tomorrow .
Yay .
& I am at Grandparents home taking good care of them .
I hugged Grand-mom so tightly .
I love and miss her so much

& a huge thanks to Atyra . Blogger was being a bitch and she was my heroine =D

Have a nice Week-End Singapore

love ,
zimah

; The beat of my heart

2009-07-31T00:10:00.003+08:00

By Destiny Child

Baby I See You Working Hard
I Want To Let You Know I'm Proud,
Let You Know That I Admire What You Do
The More If I Need To Reassure You, My Life Would Be Purposeless Without You (Yeah)
If I Want It (Got It)
When I Ask You (You Provide It)
You Inspire Me To Be Better
You Challenge Me For The Better
Sit Back And Let Me Pour Out My Love Letter

My legs are aching and my tummy is running on an empty stomach . My eye lids are weighing at a weight so heavy that even those Analytical Balances could not even read it . Yet , I am still wide awake . My mind is fresh with those choreography that I did earlier on and I am too still memorizing every of the counts and which beats to hit . The pace is definitely on speed mode and I am trying to execute my moves with detail , and that is one of the reasons on why I am still awake .

Solo pieces are to be done , and I am really nervous about performances today . Rhyfresh has been given 2 slots which is 3.15pm and 5.00pm respectively . I am seriously sweaty palms due to this , and we had like 2 days of practice . It is such luck that there is going to be 3 of us so positions will be like an alternating routine which makes it easier to remember . I have to send my fullest love and dying devotion to the people whom are going to be there supporting us . A huge and warm hugs are sent to you .

I had absolute fun in school as well as practices . Even if cock ups happen , I know they are jolly well unavoidable , so therefore I am living my life to the fullest with no grudges held on anyone . However , if someone do have a thing or two about me , than who cares . I do not live to ever please them and whatever reasons that I have , I will stick by it and I respect my decisions because I know myself better than those cats do . Enough said . All in all , such fun times today .

Will be sleeping over at Grand-mom's tomorrow due to the fact that she is alone with Grand-dad , so I will be there to accompany them . Good food awaits my tounge =D . I am in love with God , My Family , My pillars and My girlfriends .

& OH , I have a huge blister on my ankle .
Such a *tuut*

Have a good Friday Singapore

love ,
zimah

; Smooth Sailing

2009-07-29T22:52:00.003+08:00

By Jay Z feat Rihanna and Kanye West

Feeling it coming in the air,
hear the screams from everywhere,
I’m addicted to thrill,
Its a dangerous love affair,
Can’t be scared when nickels down,
got a problem tell me now,
Only thing thats on my mind is who gon run this town tonight,
who gon run this town tonite,
We gon run this town!

Life’s a game and but its not fair,
I break the rules so I don’t care,
So i keep doing my own thing,
walking tall against the rain,
victory’s within the mile,
almost there don’t give up now,
only thing thats on my mind is who’s gon run this town tonight,
heeeeey, heeeey, heeeey
who’s gon run this town tonite,

I breathe in the fresh air that nature has to offer and I put a smile on my face with generosity . I could not care less what people might think of me smiling all by myself , because for I know , at that point of time , my whole environment was different and it feels that I was soaked and deeply engross with the beats that crept in both of my ears , and to me I was in my own element . I mumbled the lyrics to certain songs and I was feeling it ; the songs , the beats , the lyrics . EVERYTHING . and for that , I realize , being close with nature is one step closer to my inner serene and calm self and all this while , I have been blinded enough not to know how to seek it and when I finally do , I felt euphoric .

School was school . Practicals and lectures . I am proud enough that I have not been sleeping in lessons anymore . I find Chemistry very very complex yet interesting in its own unique way . I am falling in love with Chemistry and I hope it gives me the opportunity to love me back . One of my lecturer warn us about Hand phones and it was really funny to see my classmates restricting them self to even touch their prize possession . Even me myself and I had the difficulties to cut that hideous habit of mine and my hands are always place in my pocket wanting to take my Baby out , but the warnings and consequences stuck by me and I decided not to risk anything .

I went straight to Jurong for practices and in the train , I was down with whatever my classmate said to me , and I pray for happiness everyday for her . All the words she says , brings a smile on my face . I see the light . Upon reaching , I waited for Dearest Sasha near the Ice Cream store and I could not resist myself and SO I bought a cup of Ripple . I was indulging it while waiting for dearest . After I met her , we bus down to Dearest Dee's crib and had our mini practice in his home . I cannot wait for tomorrow , the three of us will be watching Little Rascal at Dee's crib before having our practices .

To end off , a BIG shout out to Iman Skills for those wicked beats you sent and for real , I miss you big time and I cannot wait to have sessions with you soon . And Thank you to Allah for this brilliant day today . Alhamdullilah

Have a nice Thursday ahead Singapore .

love ,
zimah

; Now all our memories, they're haunted

2009-07-28T21:18:00.002+08:00

By Kelly Clarkson

Looking at you makes it harder
But i know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that i love you so
I love you enough to let you go

It was wrong for me to let my emotions over rule my thoughts . I knew I had the strength to keep it together but lethargy sets in and for that my walls crumble and the demons eliminate the soldiers within . It was extra wrong of me to let those feisty attitude out of the box and for that , I made someone I truly love hurt and down . I know I never meant to do it on purpose , and I am not going to pin point every of my thoughts as a back up answer for this unworthy attitude . Everything about today seems shallow and dull . Nothing is what it seems today . Everything went the complete opposite .

& now I wish ,

for a better tomorrow .

I miss you .

Have a nice week ahead Singapore .

love ,
zimah

; Holding you under the rain

2009-07-27T19:33:00.004+08:00

Manual Titration was tested in my second Phase Test today . A couple of hours back , I was ingesting all available formulas and took the extras in as well . Just in case . However , I have to thank Allah that the formula was not branched out into different components . All in all , that one hour was wisely spent on preparing , setting up the apparatus and calculating all of the figures . Oral questions were nerve wrecking and I am sure all of us where dumb founded when the questions smacked right in our face . Despite over shooting , my results were all Precise . Alhamdullilah .

Tuesday . Wednesday and Thursday will be the days whereby I will head down to Jurong to have practices for my performances scheduled on Friday and on Sunday . I truly cannot wait to print out our designs . However , on a side note , I need to dig deeper on where to find some couple of moo-lahs for that . I am still pondering about going to a certain event . I would not want to miss out on wicked skills and superb foundations . But like I say , moo-lahs are a stop to my plans .

Basically , a couple of minutes ago , I successfully watched Little Rascals and I was laughing all by myself . Adorable and cute were there . I am quite amaze at such a tender age , they can fulfill all of their lines with raw emotions . I guess I could pick up a few pointers or two from them . Such remarkable spirits those individuals have . Such unique-ness in every single way . I am looking forward to feast upon the movie once more .

I guess I lost a few pounds or grew an inch smaller . The routine and journey was new to me and so , instead of dropping off at Eunos , I actually was smart enough to drop further down which dragged me deeper into Changi Road . I was nervous and I got a little scared and I tried recollecting all of the memories I had and I remembered of a certain place so therefore , I walked all the way back to Eunos and I reached safely to the bus stop . Bus rides suddenly became cold and I was falling deep into my dreams and when I woke up , I hear the sweetest sound on Earth ; rain . I use to have this fantasy of me being with someone in the rain so therefore , walking under it was exhilarating for me EVEN if I was alone .

And oh , I had the most splendid dream yesterday and whenever I think about it , I would usually smile to myself . Giggling in some points . How I wish those dreams would appear back .

I am getting sleepy .
Have a nice rest Singapore .

love ,
zimah

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

; Chasing Pavements

2009-07-26T22:08:00.004+08:00

By Adele

I've made up my mind, don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong I am right, don't need to look no further
This ain't lust, I know this is love

But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough
'Cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do if I'd end up with you

The repeated tune that I am indulging on have successfully flow in every of my veins . Her voice have infested my brains and every word of the lyrics have been locked and stayed at the back of my mind safe and sound . Times like this , you need to slow down one bit AND therefore , that particular song have been my perfect remedy . I feel that my soul is at peace .

A couple of days ago , I found out something . Let's just say that the household will be expanding . Nervous as I may sound , I just hope that Allah will bless this home of ours . I foresee lots of love and happiness in the circle to go around when the day has come . My room will appear smaller once the new furniture move in . I need to throw some things away just to sneak in any available spaces . All in all , I am anticipating for the day to come .

Sometimes . How I wish I have the ability to scan through what is racing on certain people's mind . With that statement , my brain suddenly sends signals of the melodious tunes of "Let me know" . I cannot ever place a finger to what certain people wants . Even if , signs are present , the next thing you know ; everything is not what it seems . You might be close at a certain point and the next thing you know , silence . A same definition to the word "stranger" . Have you ever came across this feelings ? Push that aside . Never let anything to control you . (I have been a good student so far and learning slowly to the talks that a close friend of mine have been giving me)

Till here .
I am late for my appointment with my Other Space .

and just so you know . I am a proud Big sister to 9 sisters , and one brother

Zeeroc
Sasha
Wawa
Bee
Hetty
Dinah
Syiqy
Iqah
Trisya
Double Dee

and like I say previously , I will do whatever it takes to take care of them .

Week-days are here people
Have a nice week ahead Singapore .

love ,
zimah

; The world was young and we knew we couldn't rush

2009-07-26T15:25:00.003+08:00

By The Dream

(OOH!) Cuz Ill pull down a cloud for you
Ill circle the stars and bring you em back
Ill walk through the sun for you
Cuz theres somethin you do
That got me walkin on the moon
(Uhh)Theres something you do
that got me walkin on the moon
And I know that its true
You got me walkin on the moon

The aches still lingers all over . With every ache , it narrates a paragraph on the history of it . Yes , I am not going to lie that I am still very much lethargic but many things are to be done . My passion is the only thing that keeps me going . I am tied down with performances next week . I still have to do a couple of counts of choreography for my solo pieces . I too have to come up with a theme for my competition in October . I have two shows to be done in September . Looks like , the only rest I could ever get to indulge is the period of the holy month .

Despite having some malfunction here and there , I did have an awesome wicked time during the competition . I met countless of new friends , and I pull the line of new friendships closer . Everyone was there for a purpose ; to do what they love . Enemy Ground was there too . I was inspired fully with their performance . All in all , the day was splendid . Congratulations to all winners =D , and everyone look their best yesterday .

New songs added .
Hope you enjoy it

Have a nice week-end Singapore

love ,
zimah

; Reaching deep inside me

2009-07-23T14:08:00.003+08:00

"Friends are Quiet Angels"

Friends are quiet angels
Who lift us to our feet
When our wings have trouble remembering how to fly
They stand by us and give us
the strength to try

Friends are quiet angels
Who somehow make you see
The light that's in the darkness
before the dawn
All at once the journey's not so long

But it's the laughter and the fun
Sometimes the feeling that we're one
All the tears we cry together you and I
That will keep us heart to heart
as time goes by

Friends are quiet angels
Who fill your life with grace
Thrilled to share your joy
when a dream comes true
And on this special day
I'm blessed 'cause I can say
I've found a quiet angel
You're a special angel
I found a quiet angel in you

Images of each and everyone of you locked safely at the back of my mind . Scenes of every single day that we spent back than are flashing right before my very eyes . Even if time are against us , I have all of you in my heart . Remember the times whereby we would sit under the void deck and splash every of our emotions while listening to our favourite song . Back than , "Real Love" was our remedy . Remember those times that we baked cookies for our beloved teachers . Some of which ended up becoming our victim as we munched it all away . Plus making the television watch us instead of the other way round . Surfing the net to some random "ghost videos" and we scared the shit out of our self . Remember the times when during our Physical Education whereby we asked Girlfriend Izzi to do the split and when she did that we were all giggling and was definitely in awed . And I know plenty more of where this awesome-ness came from , and if only I could write a book about US , I am sure I would never know when to stop .

Such picture perfect moments . However , time has been such a biatch and everyone is having their own school time and other activities to attend . I on the other hand , even confuse myself with two numbers and the silly thing is , thinking that I gave my current number to everyone , but actually I got it all wrong . Some of you may have been contacting me through my other line and it results in which some events I was missing . But fret not , Final Destination 3 in 3D hopefully will be our best date and I am simply am looking forward to it . I love you girls so much and like I have said before , No one knows what we have been through , and how much hurdles we have to jump . Only we can feel it and experience it .

8 months .

With this 8 months , I am sure many of us learnt a lot from one another . True colours begins to show yet we accepted the flaws of one another . Love has bonded us and with love comes Understanding , Support and Trust . Not having everyone on stage feels rather weird but to be up there representing EVERYONE is the best feeling anyone can ask for . And if we accomplish something , the family HAS accomplish something . Everyone plays an important role in this family . Yes , I dare say that we are a Family . Even if troubles , problems and greasy situations befall us , we have picked our self up and stand right back up .

I have never been put in a situation whereby I am fixed with maelstrom of emotions . The good ones , the bad ones and the just plain ugly ones . However , this littlest things that happens to me makes me grow and realize of my full capability . I take full responsibility for the actions of my young ones , and if they ever make a mistake , than it shall be my mistake too . I would want my young sisters and my brother to excel and shine in whatever they do . Be it in the educational field or their passion , because for I see and in my eyes , my sisters and my brother have extra-ordinary talents that makes them unique as an individual . I truly believe , the world has so much in store for us and the way I feel it , with every step that I take , I feel the warmth palms of every individuals intertwining with mine . I am not and never alone .

To my pillars , Dinah . Hetty . I pray to God to shower you with safety , support and knowledge . Do not ever once think that you are left behind . You are always right there next to us . But right now , studies is very important and crucial examinations are here to knock you down . However I know , you girls will do just fine . And I trust that you both have been doing your homework's *I sound like a Nanny (giggles)* . Insyaallah . Good results will come for those who wait and sacrifice quality time . Like they use to say , "Play now Pay later . OR Pay now Play Later"

To my pillar BEE . We too never without a day go out and not miss nor think about you . Etched deep in every hearts , you belong in each and everyone of us . Shine like you always do on stage and on life and I assure you , SUCCESS will be with you .

A long post indeed .
Apologies for that .
Send your thanks to those who made an impact in your life .
Never take things for granted ,
because you will never know when life will end .

Have a brilliant Thursday everyone

love ,
zimah

; GIRLology . Hang-ups , Hook-ups and Holding Out

2009-07-23T00:09:00.002+08:00

Shivering cold was what I felt when I was in the bus . At that moment , wild imaginations ran through my freeze up mind . However , My Pillar Syiqy snap me back and showed me this awesome book . I might be 18 but books like this DO grasp my attention . More on the educational side , although it is fully filled with words , I on the other hand made a pact that I shall read it word by word and not missing out on one single alphabet . I personally love this section about "Jealousy" . Therefore , I will type it down right here .

Jealousy is a funny thing . Not ha-ha funny at all , just confusing . As guys enter their teens , they become a bit territorial - "Stay out of my space ; keep your hands off my stuff !" . That's all fine if they want to be like that , as long as they're talking about stuff and not people . People are not property that you own or control . The bottom line : anyone who acts territorial about someone else needs to get a clue . A guy has no right to be territorial about his girlfriend . She is not his "property"

So what is jealousy ? Jealousy happens when someone gets territorial and feels like the "owner" of a person .

On the other hand , girls and guys both need to respect their relationship by being faithful and honest . If you are in a relationship with one special person , there are certain behaviors that are expected . Just because you're nobody's property doesn't mean you can flirt with , make out with or disappear with someone else and expect your Boyfriend to be okay with that . If he gets upset over something like that , he has a right to be angry and hurt . In other words , jealousy is NOT romantic - It's dangerous , Remember that true love is not jealous .

by Melisa Holmes and Trish Hutchison
Health Communication , Inc
Deerfield Beach , Florida

There is a whole lot of other chunks as well . Like I have said earlier , I would want to read word by word and understand more . Anyway , practices was really tiring . We learnt a simple new set and everyone was doing their best to do it with great synchronization . We did a run through 2 times in a row , and at the end of the day , everyone was sweating and losing a couple of pounds I suppose *giggles* .

Thank you to my Pillars Sasha and Syiqy for helping me out in my competition in October . Real nervous about it though . Insyaallah , I will do okay . Make my family and crew-mates proud . Here I am representing each and every one of you *smiles*

It's 12.40 in the morning
I need to head off to sleep .

Have a nice Thursday ahead Singapore .

love ,
zimah

; A thousand and one praises

2009-07-22T14:53:00.006+08:00

By Jojo

I think I could like you
I already do
Feelings can grow but
They can go away too
You're takin my hand
Lookin into my eyes
Don't be in a rush to
Get me tonight

Feel somethin happenin
Could this be a spark?
To satisfy me baby
Gotta satisfy my heart

Alarm all set , and when it went off , Mama and I dragged our heavy heads to the kitchen . I trudged my not that active yet body system to the dining room while Mama was busily preparing for her little princess *giggles* . Mama and I are fasting today and we had a bowl of cereal and a cup of Hot Milo for our Pre-dawn meal .

We were having quite some difficulties in sleeping once we were done with our food , so Mama and I hanged around Facebook for a little while and in a few minutes , I admit defeat and I was fast asleep and the next thing I know , Mama was crawling on the bed and hiding herself beneath the warm comforters .

We woke up at 9 due to our individual schedules . Abah was working in the afternoon shift as earlier on he went for Prayers at the Mosque . We witness the wonders of Allah S.WT through the screen . I ran to the balcony in hopes to catch a little sneak peek but was overcome with sadness due to the fact that the dark clouds are blocking it . At that point of time , I wish I was in China with my Uncle because stuff like this do not happen EVERYDAY .

Took the same LRT with Mama , Abah and Raiyan . I decided to take a new route for my school journey . I took 966 and I had a splendid and peaceful journey in the bus . What serenity ! I was loving it . My MP3 accompanied me all the way and I was beaming in joy . What a perfect scenario . Bus rides are much more faster than train rides . That I have to conclude . Drop down at Eunos and took the Train to Tanah Merah whereby I took bus 2 to head to school .

Nothing major happen in school , just that I was nervous about the test and whatevernots to an extent that I did not manage to balance and put the bubble in the bull's-eye . But all in all . Today was Alhamdullilah . I am craving for Mee Kuay Teow and I am surely going to buy that for "Buka" later on at Dee's place .

I miss my whole squad of Rhyfresh
I am patiently waiting

& To Kak La . Alhamdullilah that you are back . The surprise for Abang was really hilarious . You and your cicak schemes . SADLY your cicak legs weren't fast enough and our supposingly approach was altered 360 degrees . All IN ALL , before Abang's return , I was glad to have some girl talks with you . We are two evil people right =)

Me love you

I am likey likey the days .
Thursday is coming people .
Have a nice day Singapore

love ,
zimah

; Everything happens for a reason

2009-07-21T22:48:00.002+08:00

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there... to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower or heart.

Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck.

Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity..... all occurs to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere, safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create who you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart to.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things.

Make every day count.

Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen.

Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high.

Hold your head up because you have every right to.

Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you.

Create your own life and then go out and live it..

Apologies for this attitude , but my reasons stay where it is .

I love you my pillars .

; Embrace positivity

2009-07-21T19:13:00.005+08:00

By Vanessa Carlton

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way through the crowd
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could Just see you Tonight

I am please with the fact that I had indulge myself to two perfect sleeps yesterday and therefore making me feel rejuvenated in the morning . To add on , school was being really nice to me and I was ecstatic that my lessons ended earlier because I would want to gather all of the rest hours that I could before my 3 straight days of intensive practices commences . Mama was being such a lover and bought me a plastic headband . I wanted it in green but it was not available , so I had to buy it in White . I than told Mama about the Green Ipod that my eye was fixed upon earlier on , Mama and Abah might be getting it for me next month . *Jumps for joy*

Oh , let me tell you what I learnt today . I am starting to think that Organic Chemistry is starting to shower me the love that I needed a long long time ago . Isomers is becoming complex yet very fun indeed . The sense of satisfaction when you get the Structural Formulae , Condensed Formulae and IUPAC Name spot on . Alhamdullilah to that . I do need to immerse myself in the previous notes and memorize more on Methane , Ethane , Propane , Butane , Pentane , Cycloalkanes and Alkenes . *giggles* . I too get all headache-KI when I dissolve all of the names in my head =D .

As for Analytical Chemistry . We had lectures on X-ray defraction . It was very interesting indeed . The best part was , it ended super early *laughs* . And Oh , I have Practical Individual Assignment tomorrow in which I will be graded . Insyaallah , I will do just fine .

I met up with Dearest Sasha and we had similar things to talk about . She knows that I love her so much , and I will be there for her everytime . Being with Dearest resulted in us pondering about our past . About the people we miss (Hetty , Dinah , Bee) and the people we use to hang out with . We both are anticipating the day till the two of our little young ones are back in our arms once again . We love them so much .

Well , I guess that is it .
I need to pray .

Have a nice week once more SINGAPORE .
Soon to be the week-ends .
Hang in there .
and I truly MISS THE USUAL GANG =(
but I have been M.I.A .
sorry

love ,
zimah

; They say that feelings change

2009-07-20T19:43:00.004+08:00

By NLT

Don’t know where to start
Something ain’t going right
Feel it in my soul cause I’ve tried, oh baby
Tried to keep you satisfied
Please don’t cry
I just think we both need time
I just feel that we are in the same room
But living two worlds apart
And its causing too much pain

A thousand and one reasons are on the back of my mind YET not one of them have been fully heard nor being supported . Thus , resulting in such circumstances whereby I truly feel that I was on my lowest points . The ones that have been sticking by me have been a blessing and for that I thank you . For all the minutes you spared me , and for all the simple advises you showered me , I began to feel where I was supposedly belong long before those feelings inherited deep in me . But , I forsee , that this matter will prolong therefore , I got to hold on to those railings and hang on tight .

It was deeply relaxing sitting all by myself at Singapore Expo while texting Mama about the things that have been taking away my focus . To add on , I had Dearest Hasween who has been with me (on the line) through out the almost 2 hours stay . I had to meet Bro Oneroc because he needs me to do some stuff and he was off to school , little did I know , HE TOO made a little detour . Therefore , I made my way home while he needs to attend other errands at Bueno Vista . I believe that HE has this wicked spell which he cast on me , and YES , I followed him blindly to Bueno Vista to check out some apparels for a short while . We joked about the littlest stuff . From what perfume that someone was using . To what HE should buy for that someone . It was damn funny . HOWEVER , the most classic moment was whereby , I trip on the staircase and I was gushing with embarrassment . Not once BUT twice . Yikes . Twice in a day *giggles* . Over all , thank you for making my mind feel at peace .

Love ,
zimah

; How does it feels being in the middle .

2009-07-18T13:25:00.003+08:00

By Esmee Denters ; Outta Here

You changed up your makeup your DNA
I can’t recognize you’re a stranger to me
I feel so betrayed what a waste of my heart

Get me outta here
‘Cuz my eyes are burning
From these silly tears
That you brought when you show me you don’t really care

Serene and comfort . That was what I felt when I stayed over at Grannie's yesterday . Times have change and my quality hours have not been generously given to those who are on the top of the list . I woke up to the smell of love that was being whipped up in the kitchen . Even if my whole body was still lethargic , I made effort in bringing myself into the kitchen and take a warm shower and once done , I ate my lunch cum breakfast . Grand-mom sat with me and we had talks . Deep in me , I was full of guilt because I am not around like I use too and it seems that a part of me is missing due to that . She narrates her problems and such and it feels that I miss a part of her as well . Insyaallah . I will make things better for everyone . This I promise .

Have a nice week-end Singapore

love,
zimah

; Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

2009-07-16T23:35:00.003+08:00

By The Dream

Cause I'll pull down a cloud for you
I'll circle the stars and bring you one back
I'll walk through the sun for you
Cause there's somethin you do
That got me walkin on the moon

My mouth went agape and my fist clenched in slight rage . My heart would not beat for a second and my eyes were glued on the black screen that was by than scrolling down the names of those who dedicate their time and soul in the movie . In my part , I do believe that I was a gullible enough into believing that Half Blood Prince was the last movie , and so with that rumour stuck in my system , I was most definitely anticipating for that ending whereby the Dark Lord will be assassinated . BUT I was spot on wrong with everything that I was concluding . However , on a lighter note , judging by how the ending was ; suspense and hanging , I am very sure that there will be a final sequel to this one , and hopefully the ending to it . All in all , a good solid 3 hours spent and to me I gave it a 4.5 rating . Worth watching . I guess I will immerse myself into the final book for the second time while patiently waiting for the last movie to be made .

Made my way to IMM whereby I bought costumes for my crew and than bought some delicious Nasi Goreng for Mama . & Whenever I walked pass the interchange , that striking yellow bus always caught my attention and I am not liking it in every way . For a moment , I will ponder on what someone is doing on the other side . Not a good feeling at all . Miss it . Anyway , met up with Kakak and Double Dee to pass the costumes and damn Trisya look good as a model . On a second section , I would love to send my well wishes to Bro Double Dee and may he have a speedy recovery . Those spots are really bad , get them well very soon *smile*

Mama and Abang met me up at Fajar Shopping Centre whereby Abang wanted to make his daily lenses and Mama was craving for some MacD's at that point of time . On behalf of the crew , thank you Mama for paying for the white paint . Seriously , I cannot wait to attend dance practices tomorrow . Ecstatic in every way .

Have a nice morning Singapore .
Sleep well .
Heads up .
Week-ends are coming to you very soon .

love ,
zimah

; I owe it all to you

2009-07-16T00:33:00.002+08:00

By Rosalynn Carter

You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through.

Despite of all the tedious obstacles and those cold hard bickering's , deep down , that is the exact spot whereby I would want to rest my heart at . I truly believe with where I am standing , I learn as I grow . I may at times feel the insecurities inside me , but I have hands to fall back on . The support and love dedicated to me is something really precious and priceless to me and I would never change it nor trade it for anything in the world . They say , having a crew is an exquisitely fully loaded task and roads may never seem so easy . Complex in many ways yet to me , a crew is like having a family . A family who does have the fair share of joy , pain and sadness . A family who sticks by you . A family who UNDERSTANDS you and accepts your flaws . Trust is build and with trust comes great success in the future . And I am going to say this once and for all , that Rhyfresh have become a part of me . Merged and bonded close in me and my DNA speaks of the name . I learn . I accept . I strive , and for that , I owe it all to them . Especially the main ones .

Clock is about to strike 1 in the morning . I am busy doing Bro Oneroc pieces yet I still steal some time to blog a little something something .

And yes .
That boy
is well miss by me
and I need him back now .

Have a nice morning Singapore

love ,
zimah

; Justin Bieber . One time

2009-07-15T01:44:00.002+08:00

Me, plus you. Im'a tell you one time, one time, one time.
When I met you girl my heart went knock, knock
Now them butterflies in my stomach wont stop stop
and even though it's a struggle love is all we got
so we gonna keep keep climbin till the mountain top
your world is my world And my fight is your fight
my breath is your breath And your heart (and now I've got my)

One love, My one heart, My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time
Im'a tell you one time
and I'll be your one guy You'll be my number one girl
Always making time for you
Im'a tell you one time
Im'a tell you one time

You look so deep, You no that it humbles me
You by my side and troubles them dont trouble me
Many have called but the chosen is you
Whatevery you want shawty I'll give it to you
your world is my world And my fight is your fight
my breath is your breath, And your heart (and now I've got my)

Shawty right there
Shes got everything I need and Im'a tell her one time
Give you everything you need, down to my last dime
She makes me happy, I know where I'll be
Right by your side cause she is the one

Oh wait . His 15 by the way
=D and superby adorable .
Me likey .
Girls . Change the she to he =D
ok random hehe

; My only destination is you

2009-07-14T23:09:00.002+08:00

Rush hour ; beautiful thoughts . Such beautiful thoughts *smile*

A whole thread full of words of a certain day keeps me on my feet . As much as how much I am anticipating it , I do feel a tinge of nervousness deep in me . Even if I am jolly well planning every single detail of that simple day , neither parts of me are actually know what is going down on that day . How about this ; Let us all go with the flow .

I was fasting today and I had a chill out dinner with My pillar Hasween . We had Kentucky Fried Chicken with Root Beer to go along . Catch up on most things that we both are left behind . Fill her with every point on information's of myself . Well simple said , I had a good relaxing day with her plus our eyes are set on some apparels , and we are going to get them very soon . Really cannot wait till Thursday to hit by , Harry Potter baby *smiles* . After which , we will be heading to Lavender to check out some stuff . Hasween dearest , looking forward for Thursday =D .

Dance practice tomorrow . Let's make this work . I need a pen and a paper to list all of the various stuff needed because Mama needs to look upon it as well . Mama would love to meet us on Friday to discuss some matters and she would want us to present her with what we have so far .

Points noted . But points kept .
Not a perfect timing I guess .
Oh well .
On a random note .
I miss the late night calls =(

Have a nice day ahead Singapore .

love ,
zimah

; It is not fun having a snitch around

2009-07-12T18:27:00.005+08:00

Chinese Proverb
If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will escape a hundred days of sorrow.

Strings of foul words are on the tip of the tongue but than again , time and time , I will always remind myself that Words are similarly to a plague but worst . Therefore , choking back in was never a simple task because the side effects of that would be ; dis-pleasement . My heart beats at a pace of what a patient person would feel . However , it is not and never fun having a snitch around .

Work was as per normal . Alhamdullilah , I receive both of my cheques . A perfect timing for my pay to jump by . Costume to be bought , bills to be paid and other surprises to be done . Praises to God . I was shifted to the Primary 3's and they were heaven sent . Adorable as always . I was in charge of this two hyper boys and we surfed the net for Educational games . I have to print countless of papers for them next week . We are down to 3 mentors next week , but it is all good . Oh have I mention that I truly miss my girlfriends really bad .

My ever changing moods have been present with me through out the week . I foresee some major meltdown and I can tell that rage is upon me , but for ALL I know , I must always breathe in and count to ten and relax in every way possible . May Allah guide me and provide me with endless patience ; because I really need it .

Shut your mouth , cuz you have no clue what my past was like .
and Video Call-ing was funny .
"Tiba Tiba , Aku Jatuh Longkang"
HAHAHAHA !

I guess it is time for me to step my game up . I apologize to you know who you are . Lately , I lost all belief and faith and confidence in myself and I was so carried away with that constant fear till I forget about what we have . I love you bro . You know that . 4 years and counting

Week-days are here to haunt us once more .
Have a nice week-days Singapore

Love ,
Zimah

; Open my heart

2009-07-11T22:02:00.004+08:00

Rejuvenate my inner self and rest my whole body mentally resulted in such a calm and serene day that I have spent . I did step out from the house as there were some matters to attend to . It was such a pleasure meeting familiar faces in which some of them whom I have been inspired since I first started dancing back in 2007 . I was thankful enough that dearest Sasha cleared out her plans and therefore accompanied me to that short meeting .

I had dinner with my family and it was delicious . We all went home with a happy stomachs . As always , I will head straight to my room while Abah and Mama head to theirs . Abah will always be outside , watching some random shows while Mama will forever be playing Bejewel and stalking me through Facebook *giggles* . Sincerely , I love them . Most of the time , I was blinded with the anger and hatred to an extent that I tend to miss out on the littlest things that they shower and showed me and that is ; love and support .

The day is racing in real fast . I can tell that I get real nervous and ecstatic whenever I think about it . The day to me might be simple and plain but like what everyone use to say , the thought and how much soul and dedication you put in an event is all that matters . Scrumptious delights to be bought and seriously , I am waiting forward for that day to roll by .

New songs up

Trey Songz ; I need a girl
Ashanti ; Unfoolish
Beyonce ; Ego

enjoy

Have a nice sleep Singapore .
Rest Well .
Sunday is finally about to come .

love ,
zimah

; What I'm feeling for you, it's unusual

2009-07-10T23:13:00.003+08:00

Im waiting, anticipating for you baby
cuz i gotta be next to you
And im wanting
You cuz u got me
Boy you got me
cuz i gotta be next to you
- Mike Jones ; Next to you

I made my very own period of awkward silences in school and precisely , I am not like I use to be . Time for me to get connected with my deeper self and touch on the points in every way possible . I was having a hard day today and I could not contain myself anymore till I let everything out to My pillar Sasha . The anger in me decreases as Sasha made my soul remain calm and collected till the seconds we met .

Finally , I watched Transformers 2 . No words to describe how stoked I was . All of the foul mood I was having earlier on dissipated into thin air . The company was equally great as well , and I am thankful . The twin Autobots reminded me on Double Dee and Oneroc . Exactly the same , and it makes me giggle whenever they came into the scene . All in all , I am really bless to have spend my time with the people I love .

I slept in the bus only to get some disturbance from someone . Thank God he did it once , or else *giggles* . I develop a major headache once I step off that bus , IT was a not a good thing and I got to apologize to everyone for coming in late . Something happen and THOSE tears were kept and have been accumulating since the week started , and to just let all of the frustrations out makes me feel lighter .

Had dinner with dearest loved ones . Double Dee and me bought this Buddy Meal and I got 2 pieces of chicken while he took the Bandito away . Despite all that , my tummy is still craving for more . Yikes . Bad !

I am done
Real tired .
Have a nice week-end ahead Singapore .

love ,
zimah

; Hold on my Young one

2009-07-09T21:00:00.003+08:00

Hold on, I'm sure, there's so much more to live for
If you hold on, things will change
So come on, be strong
and hold on, I'm sure, there's so much more to live for
As you grow strong, things will change
No pain , no gain

My days have been complex and I am struggling to get myself out from the black hole . A million and one thoughts have been infesting me and in one way or another , it effects my whole body system . I get really drain quickly and my moods have crashed onto an opposing lane . I get real indecisive on things and sometimes , I tend to wonder off when anyone flooded me with questions . This is very rare of me .

Pounded my heavy head to my bedroom and went straight to bed and get the sleep that I yearn since the term started . Apologies to everyone who have been dialling my number and get no response for that . I was soaked deep in my dreams and I would not want to escape it because I was indulging every scenes as much as possible . Images still are fresh in the mind .

Hours ago , I and the "Usual Gang" bump into this lady who in my eyes was sent by God . Her advises touched me deeply and I sense a weight loaded in me when her talks really invaded my inner space . Down to earth , I really can tell she is sincere and in her eyes , she knows that each of our individual aspects can bring us into greater heights in the near future . With trust and belief , the dreams we use to have is one step closer .

I will be having Dance practices tomorrow and some things have to be address . Praises to God for giving us the place that we have been longing to have . Mama laid out 2 performances for us and she requested that we start preparing for the events as of tomorrow . I am really ecstatic because I am able to meet my dearest crew mates . Plus with all of the outcast emotions of mine , I think I will express myself deeper with what I am going to do tomorrow .

Shopping with Mama on Saturday .
Transformers ? Insyaallah .

have a nice night Singapore .

; I see a dark cloud residing

2009-07-08T23:49:00.002+08:00

When I close my eyes , I dream that very space where I am being spoon fed with the sanctuary that I needed but reality have to be soaked in and I jump back down to Earth . The hustle and the bustle of the day got me spinning around and the feeling was bitter indeed .

The day was really mundane and as always , I was practically dozing off during the lectures . The whole thing was not getting in my brain and lucky me that Dearest Seri actually pinch me as hard as she could and that made my focus shot up to a different level and miraculously , I got the whole concept in my head . It was really FUN drawing the points and everything .

Made my journey home and got change . I was lethargic and my mood kind off went off key . As much as how I would love to spend my time wisely , I think I did not manage to do so with that kind of "priceless" mood . Really sorry .

Friday . Transformers . Please make it happen =)

Off to my private blog
bye and have a nice rest Singapore

; all I know is that you are the cure

2009-07-07T21:48:00.005+08:00

The attack of the aches are back , and for real I can make a fully directed movie for that . I have been running to and fro to my third home all day long . Anyway I woke up late as with a slip of the mind , Abah forgot about my school schedules for today and therefore I did not attend to school . Instead I met my cousin Bee and Fawly at Civics and we headed to the Library whereby I hit the notes and immerse myself into it . I remembered all of the formulas because I kept on repeating it to myself over and over again . I can never get sick and tired of placing myself on repeat mode . *smile*

Met Sasha for a little while and trudge back home . Mama and Abah drag me along to the nearest shopping centre to retrieve back Mama's repaired phone .

Speechless . Better keep this to myself now .
Do not know who to lean on and trust .

Ok done !
=D

; Summary Memory

2009-07-06T21:47:00.004+08:00

First day of the term .

Normal routine at City Hall , it was awesome meeting everyone back
Test was quite normal yet satisfactory in some ways
Lunch at Burger King was worth every laughter
Practicals were a bore and I was a klutz *period*
Left4Dead with One . Survived two chapters . With one leaving One behind *smile*

The week

Home sweet Home
Transformers this week with S Insyaallah
More practicals and lessons in school

love .

; thats just how im designed

2009-07-05T22:23:00.007+08:00

Droplets of rain streaked down my well curved cheeks and I could feel deep inside me shrug in a manner that I myself can never explain . A sudden emotion of fear built inside me and I was crumbling slightly . My walls are falling letting in the demons to bypass it and pulling me to the abyss bit by bit . Breaking down was never an option to do in Public and I control every feelings well and manage to stir all the bad sides away . I am not saying that I am fine , BUT that was what I can do to help climb myself back up from all of the unnecessary pulling .

I am sure those who came close contact with me today shares the same disappointment's as me , and yet I still am but it was never our fault in the first place that the place was soaking wet due to the rain .

The second term is about to start and I do not find myself in a happy position . I am cringing with anxiety and despite the fact that I am meeting "The Usual Gang" , the thoughts that I have been collecting and elaborated still haunt me . I speak every fear I have towards Oneroc and Smurf and no matter how reassuring their words are , it is still taunting me at the back of my mind . I hope whatever I think of lately will never be an absolute truth .

I see a need to make this post a long one due to the fact that I see myself NOT updating regularly , but I will try as much as I could . So , as mention on the above tittle , I would like to touch on some things that people might or might not know and I really hope by detailing some points , you will seek a better picture of who I am . Before proceeding , I would like to inform that it touches on "Love"

You see , I have never been that very person who speaks about what she has in mind and I keep bottling it in me . With all of the bad situations that fall upon me , I was becoming more and more aware of the world and always did not dare to make that move . Speaking what I have in mind is where I seek my Blogs help . I express better when I write than the words that I tend to say . A friend of mine encourages me to learn how to express myself through words ; and I am still trying . I myself place a huge WHY on myself on certain times . For example , how easily I can say those three words through text BUT the words seem to choke on me when I am on the phone . I guess the degree of fear has made me into this , and I am scared that History will come back at me and repeat itself . I do not want that to happen and so , I place a shell over me and this is what I have become . I believe that , all the things that I am trying to learn , I will take it step by step . However , I am real proud of myself because when I fall for that someone , I will dedicate me to him . For example , I tend to take risk and such , and I tend to care less about other jocks besides him . I do not see a need to play two or three or four even if you are in the "phase" . & if at the end of the day I get myself hurt , I can only blame myself but I take every memories as a blessing .

But , for now .

you go figure yourself OUT

& dinah . I need you PRONTO =D
Left4DEAD tomorrow ???
Kantoi sia hahaha

; chilling with no make-up on

2009-07-05T01:43:00.003+08:00

I am feeling quite a displeasing pain on the back of my head and I feel slightly nausea right now . Therefore , I am taking this short break from my studying to write an entry . Honestly , I can feel the bones in me cringing in fear and I feel pressurized . Brain cells are working its charm and is re-collecting every memory I had in lessons which makes my "job" less difficult . Simply , I can just re-read the ones that I am certain with , but I really have to go one on one and perfect detailing with the topics that I am weak on ; Covalent bonds and whatever not . Formulas too are playing a villain role in making my head spin . Stressful blur indeed .

The day started with me waking up at One in the afternoon after spending some late night quality time with my laptop . I had Burger King for lunch and off I met up with Sasha as we need to get some shorts for our performance tomorrow . We were insane I tell you . I came up with the most random game and we had pure fun with that . I guess you must be wondering what was the game ; counting on how many ladies who are wearing short pants or what others may call it , Hot Pants . Flaunt it girls =D

I played my very first Left4Dead game . Years back I was addicted to Halo , Counter Strike and Quake but now , I am widely interested and addicted to this new game . Honestly , 2 hours was not enough . My computer kind of hang on me half way through the game and I was mad as hell . I and Sasha kept on contesting on who gets the character Zoey first , and my fingers are fast enough to gain that position . Seriously , I feel the urge to buy that CD game . I had fun slaughtering on those infected zombies and the most happiest moment was when I killed Bomber , this fat zombie who blurts stupid gaseous stuff at us . Faque was real bad to always disturb the Witch but it was super cool when all 4 of us were shooting at it . There is one zombie which I loathe and we call it Sapau because his body is enormous like mad , and his head is to me real tiny so it was difficult to give him that head shot . I kept on blurting all those colourful vocabulary and I was at the edge of my seats . I was into it . The numbers of zombies I killed increase with every game despite the fact that I tend to be the first one dead *giggles* . One step at the time baby =D

I am going to get back mugging real soon . Plus I cannot wait for performances tomorrow . Solo piece is not yet done , but I got a picture of what I am going to do , and the song that I am dancing to is Dedicating to someone . What's important is , I am dancing with my lovely pillars and my sisters . Real yay-ness to that .

On a random note , Jeremiah song to Birthday Sex is the bomb . It might sound freakishly wrong , but than again , it sound so SEXY and the video is classy . Real CLASSY . AND Abang is going to get me Lava Lamp . As a kid , I was craving for that . =DD .

I love to see you walk into the room
Body shining lighting up the place
And when you talk, everybody stops
Cause they know you know just what to say
And the way that you protect your friends
Baby, I respect you for that
And when you grow, you take everyone you love along
I love that you don't fly me away
Don't need to buy a diamond key to unlock my heart
You shelter my soul
You're my fire when I'm cold
I want you to know

You had me at hello

; because I am thinking of you

2009-07-04T03:00:00.002+08:00

The whole system is not even ready to hibernate , so therefore I am indulging myself with the very much addictive online radio . Honestly , I do feel shagged but somehow the littlest things that I am thinking of is keeping me up and is slightly bothering me . Questions after questions tend to pop out and even if happiness shines my way , I tend to contradict everything and question myself . Simple said , the past is something to be learnt and I do not wish history to ever repeat itself .

Holding myself back due to fear . See it in my eyes and figure it out . Complete my missing puzzle and I might love you even more . But the good thing is , the way I see , that special someone knows me better than I even know myself and that is interestingly unique yet weird *giggles* . My cousin told me that it is not and never wrong to do certain stuff and I am looking forward for that day to come *smiles* . Push the past to the side , and just let nature takes its course .

No calls for the morning , and I understand fully . His hand phone has been dis functional and have been dead ever since . Resuscitate it when the time is appropriate . *giggles* . Out of random , I feel that the songs being played right now suit this whole blog theme slash entry . Coming back , HOWEVER , let me shove the negatives to one dark corner and focus on what I have been receiving graciously and generously . I appreciate everything , and I hate it when I miss someone because I know how draggy I can get .

It's 3.16 in the morning and here I am writing an entry which my inner self told me to type and express the minimum . The maximum have to be altered in my other space . Seriously , SERIOUSLY . I am one happy 18-year old girl , because I think I fall for you and I miss you .

Baby steps . My young one . Baby steps .
=D

Just what my dreams are made of ; you

2009-07-04T00:34:00.003+08:00

It takes a person like you , to make a person like me ; HAPPY .

Morning was quite a clumsy moment for me and I was bumping with most of the things that surrounds me . I woke up slightly late and I was rushing against time just as to catch up with my Uncle so that I could hitch a ride to work . Lucky me that time seem to tick so slowly and I got dress as quickly as possible and met my Uncle .

Lady luck was not by my side when the morning seem to drift pass . I was giving my fullest attention to this new toddler and I had to keep a close eye on him because he tends to break down and you would not want to know how high the decibels are when he cries , so at one point of time , I had to place him away from my lap and to my horror I see wet stains and I soon release that his Pampers were full and whats worst was , he actually let out the big one . However , Lady Luck seem to be nice today and Mama passed me spare pants and it feels so damn good with those new and clean pants on .

After work , I met up with Dearest Sasha . So much for playing Left 4 Dead , because our dearest friends were superbly late . My patience was wearing thin , BUT I know it would not last for long because they know a way to crack me up as always .

A short post . I am really lethargic .
AND I sincerely do miss him .
You .
Yes YOU .
*smiles*

A diamond key ; to unlock my heart

2009-07-02T23:28:00.004+08:00

My eyes were giving me last warnings and I had to literally over rule every of the notices and get myself up and ready by 7.15 in the morning , reason being ; I had to work . Scheduled myself and alter every plans made ; my timings are rather loose actually . 8 in the morning to 4 in the afternoon . After which , I will head down to practices and have one intensive moments .

As for today , a slight headache pop out of nowhere and I was in pain . The continuous streak of toddlers crying took control of me and for a second , I wish I could just have a couple of extra hands so as to carry all of them at once . *Imagines* . The day went rather smooth yet bumpy but all in all , I see myself doing this in the near future . I have huge love for kids and seriously to feel like I have been getting a head start to my dreams for the future is rather a blessing actually . No amount of words can express how I feel .

. I went shopping with Mama today . She will be attending a dinner and dance with Abah tomorrow and she is searching something classy . In the end , she settled for this bright green dress which looks GOOD on her and I have to admit , she looks sizzling .Abah you better wear something real awesome too *giggles* . While we were walking , Mama asked me to return the Adidas bag which I had lend from Hasween , so I was complaining back that I will not have anything to wear to school and Mama was being lovely today and she got me a brand new Adidas Bag . Thank you Mama . Not only that , she bought for me 2 dresses and to top it off , we dine at Pizza Hut with Abang and Raiyan .

I rushed down to practice and praises to god for letting the practice be held somewhere near . I was silly enough to believe something and when I found out it was untrue . I was smiling deep deep . When my eyes dwell upon a specific person , I do not know why I was fluttering in the inside . I was real happy , stoked and ecstatic . Let me not go there for the moment , all in all we had deep conversations and seriously . I love my crew .

Plus today , I found something , and hey , now you FEEL what I FEEL ages ago .
Fret not , things like this are of a learning experience and I believe for a person like you .
You deserve better
Heads up Young One .

lots of love
zimah

Out of my zone

2009-07-02T01:07:00.003+08:00

At that point of time , I could not see a clear picture to an issue that I am dealing with . I let the weakness took control , and for a second , I made a retarded decision that cause me slight consequences . I was not certain enough to that whole picture and it seems that everything is fading away just like watercolours which had been rained and , that was one of the main reasons why all sorts of reckless decisions were made . Rash I must say , but at the end of the day , I need to arrange myself and get my priorities straight . AS much as how important Dancing is to me , my STUDIES are equally major as well .

Lucky me , I have a close number of supportive people who believed in me . After much advises taken in , I feel uplifted , and rejuvenated . To top it off , I had a splendid day with my lovely pillars . We took some weird videos and we walked aimlessly to shopping centers , AND now I cannot wait to see them all over again tomorrow . Pity me that I have to work tomorrow or else I would be playing Left4dead with the boys . *sad face*

Insyaallah , my wish will come true in hours to come .
Please Please Please .
*huge smile*

and Sasha got me addicted to this song .

Feel like I'm in the play-offs, sitting on the bench.
Begging the coach to put me in.
And sometimes I get the sense;
The game's gonna end and my team's not gonna win.

Have a nice sleep Singapore

; & because I fall for his techniques and sick skills , not his status .

2.40 in the morning

2009-07-01T02:38:00.002+08:00

Good morning Singapore .
I am very sure most of you are having your beauty and much needed sleep .
Sounds awesome , and may God Bless a bright day ahead once you awake .

Someone once told me that I should never ever let emotions control me for I am the only one who have the ability to control everything in me . Something surreal happen earlier on ; while I was secretly getting addicted to Kak La's You-tube account , that particular video caught my eyes and I could not help but to feast my eyes on it . I saw something magical , and no words can express how sweet it was . It was beyond to my expectations and I am really proud to have a brother like him . I saw a side of my brother which in my world "did not exist" , and for that tears start rolling down my uber warm cheeks . Sometimes in life , we focus more on someones flaws rather than the positive things . Today I learnt that no matter how many flaws one may have , I on the other hand have to respect the flaws and accept the person for who or she is . Stop being typical and let love slid through in this already cold world .

To think back about the earlier incident , I actually laughed it off and claim how silly was I to shed a tear on that one simple video . All I can say is , LOVE is a huge word and once you get a taste of it , everything seem to dissolve into thin air . Even if LOVE is something you are not receiving nor getting , at least be happy that LOVE still exist and for me , that is all a human like me can ask for . No one would ever want to live in a world filled with anger or hatred .

I apologize if this gets draggy because this is the real me when I am up awake at this hour . Very bad in deed and I have yet to start studying *smacks myself on the forehead* . Yesterday , I did something which was beyond to my belief . I actually erased all of the music in my player and I got brand new tracks and I am really addicted , and the music that I am indulging soothes my soul in a way , and the lyrics are really intricate and I was drown in my own world whereby I envision every situation the lines are wrote . I could feel PAIN and STRUGGLE . I felt it , it sends chills down my spine . I am looking forward to have more of this likes of songs in my player because it feels my spirits are lifted up and it feels as though the song KNOWS and UNDERSTANDS me inside out .

This is rather deep don't you think so . I let my fingers do the typing while my mind is sending word by word to my already aching fingers . I have practices tomorrow and I promise myself that I will NEVER get to dance if I never complete 5 chapters of Introductory Chemistry notes . Beat that . That is my punishment for not starting early , but deep down I still have the facts in my head .

Let me leave you with some statements from the song that I am currently addicted to .
If you are smart enough , you will know who is it from
=D

And if you can't acknowledge the reality of my words You just another stupid mother fucker out on the curb But I see through the mentality implanted in us And I educate my fam about who we should trust

Have a nice rest Singapore .

Demi Lovato ; Here we go again

2009-07-01T00:08:00.002+08:00

I Throw All Of Your Stuff Away,
And I Clear You Out Of My Head,
I Tear You Out Of My Heart,
And Ignore All Your Messages.
I Tell Everyone We Are Threw,
Cause' I'm So Much Better Without You.
But It's Just Another Pretty Lie,
Cause I Break Down,
Everytime You Come Around.
Ohh ooh.

Chorus:
So How Did You Get Here
Under My Skin?
I Swore That I'd Never Let You Back In.
Should Have Known Better
Then Trying To Let You Go,
Cause Here We Go, Go, Go Again.
As Hard As I Try I Know I Can't Quit,
Something About You
Is So Addictive.
We're Falling Together
You Think That By Now I'd Know,
Cause Here We Go, Go, Go Again.

Verse 2
You Never Know What You Want,
And You Never Say What You Mean,
But I Start To Go Insane!
Everytime That You Look At Me.
You Only Hear Half Of What I Say,
And You're Always Showing Up Too Late.
And I Know That I Should Say Goodbye,
But It's No Use.
Can't Be With Or Without You

I LOVE HER VOICE

Whispers in the ear .

2009-06-30T22:48:00.002+08:00

A slight warm breeze brush pass me and I indulge in the freshest air that nature has to offer . I needed some time pampering myself after such long hours of dedicating and committing myself towards my passion , therefore , my itchy hands bought all the stuff that I was craving for that entire moment . Waffle Chocolate and Chocolate cake have been my latest victim and I have yet to consume it . Hunger strikes and the way I see it , I am taking double the dosage . Lucky me that I will be having three straight days of practices to burn those stubborn layers off *smiles*

I got really random by night and since I was home alone and somehow the vibe was not right , I decided to make my way down to Zhenghua Community Center to take a sneak peek on what the boys of KMC are doing . It is great meeting them , and most definitely , I miss chilling out with them . Hezry seriously surprised me with his new look , AND his new tricks . Awesome I must say . Radz as always , being consistent with his moves . Not mentioning Saiful too . Despite him having some torso pain , he still pushed on .

I need to really GET myself into studying mode , I swear that I will be meeting up with Helmi to gather the notes on the days which I was absent for the whole entire week . I seriously AM not liking this attitude of mine , and yes . I will burn midnight oil from today onwards . Mark my words , and if you see sacks of eyebags , you will KNOW the reason why *giggles*

To side track for a while , days have been quite a bizzare to me . There are times whereby I will get mad but than again , I realease all the anger in me by chanting positive vibes into me . People have been getting on my nerves , and I am not liking that because my button has been pushed , and I am scared that I might erupt anytime soon , and if I erupt , I will be on a losing end BECAUSE for I know , I never erupted on anyone . I have to thank god for showering me with ample of patience to get through this , and insyaallah , karma will hit on those who I am referring too .

I was super stoked when Bro Oneroc told me a little something something . YET to my grief that THAT person is still away . Yikes !

To my dearest cousin , all the things that we share , are well kept AND I MISS YOU ALREADY

I think your truly somethin special
Just what my dreams are really made of
Let's stay together you and me boy
There's no one like you around
Oh Baby

Setbacks ; a sign of a comeback .

2009-06-29T20:08:00.002+08:00

Through my naked eye , I can easily spot that days are moving slow . Despite having that ample rest that I have been longing to have , I still am not rejuvenated and it feels that I need more quality time with my bed . The signs of drain out of energy is still deep in me and I constantly keep on yawning every few minutes . I need to spice up my days like totally . Even if Sasha was sleeping over yesterday , I was the one who doze of early while she drag her time with my laptop . Silly of me and I guess I was overwhelm with lethargy , to an extent that I actually did snore for the first time in my whole entire 18 years of living . Yikes . *giggles*

I had lunch over at MacDonald's with Syiqy and Sasha . I really loathe moments whereby I do not have practices for I know I will have the tendency to double up my dosage of junk food , but lucky me that I was strong enough to fight every of my temptations . Moving on , I drag my heavy legs to Mama workplace because I sincerely miss the kids and I do miss working there . I really cannot wait to be back as I have to choreograph a piece for their Graduation Day as always . How exciting .

I will be having a performance this Sunday . It is actually a Concert . Have you ever heard about MILK run ? Well , it is already changed to Streetwise Run and I and the rest of my crew mates are honoured to dance for this event . For more information to this event , you can click HERE
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I am looking forward to Dance practices over at the studio on Thursdays and Fridays . I am missing every member of the crew already . I would love to spend more time before the school term starts . And speaking of school , I better get going and dig my heads to the notes . Theory Test : Introductory Chemistry One . You think it is EASY ? Well , better take back those words . It is really tough , if you look through my notes , YOU WILL KNOW WHY . *huge smile*

Done blogging . Mama bought Cheesecake and my mouth is already shouting for it . So yess
Have a nice night Singapore ...

love

Falto a você Smurf

2009-06-28T22:53:00.005+08:00

My dosage of laughter is currently at my home and is sleeping over . Up to now , I am giggling due to her silly antics , and you know what this silly girl doing ? Well she is lying on my bed with her face smack on the blanket and is swaying her body to the beats . I swear I cannot supress my laughter any longer . To add on , earlier on , we had a random conversation with dearest Marsh and she mis-spell my name as Simah , and the both of us cracked up at an instant , and oh , we almost wanted to roll over the floor and just laughed our hearts out . I can feel abs starting to form now *giggles*

Oh my , today I feel really shagged and I am just bless enough to sit myself at home and just lay back and enjoy the day and the company I have . Mama bought me Fish and Chip for lunch cum dinner , and my stomach is still rather empty . Well , at least Sasha and myself bought a packet of Maggie Curry for our late night supper , and oh , we will be having a late night movie at my living room later on . Real excited . We have yet to choose the Hindustan movie , but I have my options already . Later on too , I will be recording some stuff and keep on practising on my freestyle . I am sure , I will have a kick ass fun with Sasha .

And to Marsh , thanks for introducing me to a very addictive Facebook game . *hugs*
and someone is back . Much misses .

For the love of dance .

2009-06-28T00:20:00.005+08:00

I got all teary eyes DUE TO THIS =D

My brain fluids are sending mass massage to my whole body . The only word I can think of is Alhamdullilah . I am greatly contented with today's competiton , despite not clinching any top positions , I was gratified enough that I shared my experience with the people whom I love the most . Another important part of this is that , I get to bring home a new knowledge or two from the experience I gain , and not forgetting making new friends . Absolutely love the day . My smile cannot seem to fade . Before this post becomes to draggy . I would love to send my deepest love to the ones above . One ; Rhyfresh . Thank you for all the patience , thank you for all the hard-work . Thank you for everything . You know my love for each and everyone of you is infinite despite countless of flaws . You are the best I ever had . Second ; Kak Ikin and Mira our youngest member in Rhyfresh . Kakak , thank you for believing in us . You pick up when we almost wanted to fall . Thank you for dedicating your precious sleeping time just to lend a helping hand . I love you kakak , lets go Karaoke-ing soon ok =D Below are some of the pictures taken , more pictures are taken by Double Dee camera . So enjoy . AND I HAVE TO WORK TOMORROW . BEAT THAT *giggles* and Rhyfresh , I cannot wait FOR everyone to come down to next weeks' practice . Streetwise charity run on Next Sunday !

Finally , thank you to those who came down and supported . ABAH , MAMA , ABANG , ABANG DAN , Sam and friends and many more . Deeply apprieciated .

Of all days ; and you had to choose this

2009-06-27T08:44:00.003+08:00

Morning had to come and sadly to say , I did not even indulge in a proper sleep . It was such a bummer because I spend my terrible night tossing and turning while plugging my ear to the radio . I guess I will for surely develop eyebags , no doubt about that . I think I deserve a slight break once my performance for a Charity Run on next Sunday end , I too need to get my priorities straight , I have a major test once school is re-open . *shivers*

To add fire to an already heating oil , I am having my period now . Not a good time tummy , your timings are awfull ! I am dreading the pain right now yet I still have the cheek to blog a couple of some some here . *giggles* . Oh my , I have a sudden craving for Bubble Tea ; Strawberry Ice Blended . If it was not for Bee , I think I am not expose to this flavour .

And oh , COMPETITION is ; TODAY . I am nervous as hell , and our costume are almost done but I am sure like what my young one says , the outcome will be excellent . In God's willing , I know we can . I need to head to Popular Bookstore to get printing paper . Something awesome to be done , and I am sure many would not even see it coming . Even if the gesture might be a little , but we have respect to our inspirations .

I guess I will have to head of to the showers right now . My body is trembling with mixed emotions . All the best to everyone who is taking part . For the LOVE of dance yo !

and can someone bring back that dude already =D . THANKS

much love .

Rest in peace

2009-06-26T12:19:00.002+08:00

Give thanks to Allah,
For the moon and the stars
Prays in all day full,
What is and what was
Take hold of your iman
Don't givin to shaitan
Oh you who believe please give thanks to Allah.
Allahu Ghefor Allahu Rahim Allahu yuhibo el Mohsinin,
Hua Khalikhone hua Razikhone whahoa ala kolli sheiin khadir

Allah is Ghefor Allah is Rahim Allah is the one who loves the Mohsinin,
He is a creater, he is a sistainer and he is the one who has power over all.

The news came in as a shock to me . Honestly , it felt surreal and as though the news came in feast on my ears when I was sleeping . At that instant , I grab hold of my laptop and my predictions were true . A sudden gush of sadness overwhelm me , for I know Michael Jackson is someone whom I look up too . I am sure many others took him as an Inspiration . He has his own unique style and slick moves , despite countless of his flaws , MANY still accepted him for who he is .

I guess his time has come , and Allah loved him too much . My biggest condolences to his family and friends and to people whom have love him deep down . Insyaallah , his journey to meet the Mighty One will be smooth sailing . Plus , how can I not be sad whenever I hear his version to that song above .

Rest in peace .
MJ

with love ,
zimah

What the f&*k you gonna do .

2009-06-25T23:54:00.005+08:00

Abang's Passing Out Parade was filled with sheer joy and I truly felt the bond amongst the cadets . Mama , Abah , Myself and Abang Dan paced our way towards Abang who was standing as still as a pole and I ; being the evil sister was giggling along the way . Mama and Abah replace his rank into a higher one and the chemistry was unexplainable . I could see sparks of Pride in the air , and I am really happy for my Abang . To sum up the day , the food served was delicious . The Oyster really enchanted me . Sadly , Abang can only be home tomorrow . Bummer . However the good thing is , Laptop is safe in my arms . I can now feast my eyes upon Brian from dusk to dawn *huge smile*

I have to send my deepest gratitude towards my uncle for sending me off to Dee's place . Detailing was done and Alhamdullilah , everything is settle . We still have a couple of counts left for our second last song , however I have full faith that the things that we have been dreaming and planning will work out in the end . My sisters and I have been talking about the comments people might give us ONCE they see our costume *giggles* . Only the four of us know , and most definitely , I too cannot wait to bedazzle everyone .

Oh Raiyan knocked me on my jaw and due to that , I am experiencing bad headaches and I complained a lot !

Let me stray for a minute . I would want to express a little something something here . I am really losing my patience and every inch of my faith in someone . I thought I knew you , but somehow , people change and I guess you changed . I honestly , do not feel you and your presence around me . You are like a wilting flower and no matter how hard I try to revive it , I seem to fail . Easy said , I do not know you anymore . I am clueless myself . Please do not say WE did not try , we did , but there are times you took it the wrong way .

On a flipside , I miss you . I really do . I miss your voice . PLUS I am craving for you and your singing . =( Where are you ar actually ? hahaha

and oh . something new haha

ok bye .
HAVE A NICE SLEEP SINGAPORE =D

'cause I do struggle

2009-06-25T14:05:00.002+08:00

Being expose to new genre of dance is something really changeling to me , to an extent that I often develop dead knots in my stomachs . My mind will race countless of thoughts and my emotions have to deal with it . There were times when I admit that I was that close in waving my white flag high up in the air , but I did not . My Mama have been a good adviser , and her words keep on repeating at the back of my mind . Mama see myself as a versatile dancer , and she believe that if I work extra hard , my sweats will definitely pay off in the end . Dancing to me is not about sticking to one style , but to explore deeper into it and understand the history and culture of that certain style .

My point is , I am dead nervous for this Saturday . As the days draw nearer , I can feel that my heartbeats began pounding at a rapid speed . Even now , I can feel that every limbs , bones and veins of mine are trembling with anxiety . At the same time , I am quite stoked and cannot wait for the day to come because even if the piece that we are about to do possess some new elements , I am equally excited to show everyone of what my crew has come up with . In God's willing , we will do just as fine , or shall I say , BEYOND extra-ordinary . *smiles*

Heading to Abang's Passing Out Parade in hours to come . My fire fighter brother has served the nation with full pride and honor . Really am proud of him , and I am sure Mama and Abah too . Plus , Abang I miss my laptop so much , so that is another reason why I am happy that you are coming home today *giggles* . Totally kidding .

I better start doing some light chores .
Have a nice day Singapore .
*big smile*

At the end of the day .

2009-06-23T21:59:00.001+08:00

Goodness gracious me , my legs are aching and the pain is getting intense . However , the fact that the costumes are done makes me super gratified . Despite us walking the aisle to and fro and a walking through couple of unknown roads , we manage to grasp good deals and I am very thankful and may God bless upon those kind souls .

Having to share this really lethargic day with three of my sisters sums up the whole day . I learn that , perseverance plays an important role . I admit , a few plans really choked and we were all in the midst of just giving up , but we did not , AND see where it brought us . To summarize everything , I have to honestly feel that the costume is beyond to anyone expectations even ours , and so out of our comfort zone . All in all , I feel something unexplainable in me .

Praises to god that finally Abang is having his Passing out parade tomorrow . I miss his presence at home plus I miss seeing Kak La too =( . Since two tickets were given , Mama and Abah decided to go . I do not mind actually because I am super pack with dance practises .

I better go . Mama ask me to eat .

Congratulations , you have just crossed it

2009-06-22T23:38:00.002+08:00

Honestly , for this month , my ears have been digesting different angles of stories and I was nice enough to not put my sides to anyone . Easier said , I remained neutral . Indeed the specific quotes are noted and I do take my word , but do not ever mistake it by signs of my weakness , for I hold a bigger picture to the greasy situation . As what I have mentioned , my fingers are not pointing to the winning authority , but now I know better and the crystal globe seem so pure to even believe .

All I can say is , I am not getting all shady nor nothing , for I believe you might have a good explanation to why this and that had to happen , so I will remain as I am but you got to learn that I drew a line of trust before forging our friendship , and you have to know that you have successfully crossed it . Broken every barrier possible .

Enough about that , I am starting to miss my laptop real bad . Quite bum out due to the fact that big brother actually took along Mr.D60 along with him as well . How bored will I get in days to come . Let us all sit down and ponder about it for a little while . Plus , I will do a late update on Singapore Championship , sorry for that .

To end off , I would like to send my mass shout outs to those who came by at Dee place to lend a helping hand to our item . I see warm love spreading because even if they were not participating neither was she in our crew , they came down and work their butts off . Thankful enough , and if god sends his blessings to us on that day , do know that nothing of this is possible without the love and help from you people . Once again , thank you .

Plus , God have send an angel to my life that keeps me smiling even if the clock strikes 4 or 5 in the morning . I missed my laughter and truthfully , I have never laughed this bad , or smiled that wide before . Currently , the songs that someone sang is locked in my memory . I have no clue why , perhaps that someone was the first ? All in all , I thank God for crossing my path with his , because his advises somehow clears a little air and in times when I am choking on what to do , his suggestions was reasonable .

Oh , I am still well much pissed off . So thank you .

Summer love

2009-06-21T23:52:00.002+08:00

Let me put aside the bitterness of what I am experiencing right now , and solely claim that I am one very very contented lady . Days been awesome despite having a few minor hiccups . My globe to globe smile will never wash away . All in all , I am such a euphoric lady to date . That "So Sick" piano piece is awesome , and there goes that smile which keeps on popping up when your verses starts to play . I swear to god , that I will never ever let no one BUT me listen to that recording .

Let me leave a whole post tomorrow entirely for Singapore B-boy Championship , because too many things to say and elaborate .

Baby I See You Working Hard
I Want To Let You Know I'm Proud,
Let You Know That I Admire What You Do
The More If I Need To Reassure You,
My Life Would Be Purposeless Without You
If I Want It
When I Ask You
You Inspire Me To Be Better
You Challenge Me For The Better
Sit Back And Let Me Pour Out My Love Letter

Let Me Help You
Take Off Your Shoes
Untie Your Shoestrings
Take Off Your Cufflinks
What You Want To Eat Boo?
Let Me Feed You
Let Me Run Your Bathwater
Whatever You Desire, I'll Aspire
Sing You A Song
Turn The Game On
I'll Brush Your Hair
Help Put Your Do Rag On
Want A Foot Rub? (Yeah)
You Want A Manicure?
Baby I'm Yours I Want To Cater To You Boy

Loving this song . Forever =D

Good Morning Singapore

2009-06-20T07:19:00.003+08:00

As much as how lethargic I am right now , I still am finding the difficulties in resting my hundred pound head on my comfortable bed which is calling my name at this very second . A few hours back , I did my morning prayers before sending off Mama and Abah as they are heading to Johor , Malaysia for a short trip with their friends . The time now is 7.23 in the morning , and I yearn to head to sleep BUT whenever I place my head on that fluffy pillow of mine , I tend to toss and turn and it does bugs me a lot .

Many uncountable thoughts are residing in my mind , and is it up to me to take it to the right lane . The words that I kept , will be kept because stuff like those needs some time and a little bit of understanding between one another . I am taking every negatives and turning it into positives because if not me , who will . I am always there and I will try my very best to overcome the situation . Keep that in mind .

I will be meeting Sasha in 3 hours time . Happy enough to get my hair fix . Can I highlight it too . *giggles*

New songs up

Asia Cruise feat Huey (love in your life)
Jay-Z (The prelude)
The Dream (Put it down)

and to those girls below .
I miss you all lah sei =(